Sunday, August 10, 2008
i've been... well, let's just say i've been sitting down to think hard about stuffs. and... i just don't know how everything will end up. i'm trying to get my life back on track and focus on what needs to be focused on. but it's hard. it's way too hard.
i've weighed all the consequences on both sides. but it still leaves me with a nought for an answer, because what exactly am i more willing to risk?
i'm terrified of whatever that is to come. maybe it's my fault for letting myself end up in this position. but now that i'm faced with the harsh reality, i'm just scared.
i can ask around, but the ultimate decision rests on me. i'm trying very hard to keep an open mind about this whole thing. still i find myself blinded by the situation to even think about acting rationally. i simply don't know what i'm more willing to forsake.
me, or us.
i don't want to hurt you. but at the same time i don't want to regret.
days are flying past. i don't have much time.
2:46 am
