Tuesday, June 10, 2008
why is the situation between us like this? i'm annoyed at you but i still love you. although like i realise there's no fricking point in me forever waiting and hoping. but why am i still doing it without fail? i told myself i'm not going to bother too much about you. but why can't i stop worrying about you?half the time when i miss you (like today), it feels wasted (like today). other times i can't help but miss you.but like what most of my friends say, you don't care. so why should i care about you?that's the problem. i still care for you, and i still know i'd die if anything happens to you. i can't imagine life without you being some part of it. i don't even know if i can pick myself up afterwards.i just need people to back me up. to cushion my fall. i'm so tired of facing this alone. till now, i can still hold on to the threads. but what happens when it snaps?
special shout out to:
Umai - HAHA. thank you for making me laugh non-stop for a good 15-20 minutes. late night craps is the best! ILY beb. we are in the same perahu, 'thanks' to manusia2 yg benar-benar 'sensitive'. buhh.
Vivien - hee. i shall be a panda and hook onto you! and even if you run away, i will come look for you. hehe. can't wait for Wed!
and the song that accompanied me through the night:
Bicara Manis Menghiris Kalbu by Siti NurhalizaSatu per satu teman
Ada disekeliling mu
Satu per satulah jua
Tinggalkan diri mu
Cumalah aku sahaja
Yang masih lagi bertahan
Memendam rasa
Bulan madu yang indah
Sudah sampai kehujungnya
Engkau pun mula berubah
Dan beralih arah
Kata-kata manis
Tiada lagi ku dengar
Hidup ku pula makin tawar
Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan
Mata mu
Tiap bicara manis
Memujuk dan merayu ku
Tak usah berlalu
Dan merajuk bawa hati pilu
Andai sudah tiba masa
Dan tiada jodoh kita
Biar kita berpisah... dari merana
Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan
Mata mu
Tiap bicara manis
Memujuk dan merayu ku
Tak usah berlalu
Dan merajuk bawa hati pilu
Keikhlasan hati ku
Bukanlah untuk di balas
Cukuplah sekadar
Jadi kenangan waktu berjauhan
Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan mata mu
Andai sudah tiba masa
Dan tiada jodoh kita
Biar kita berpisah...Dari merana
1:21 am
