Friday, June 06, 2008
dreamt of you for three nights straight. and every little thing has started to remind me of you.i miss you.but i know there's no point even if you come online, cos it's not like we talk, anyway. it's just the presence of you there.i miss you.i have no idea how i'm going to keep on holding to this facade of strength. there's only so much the mind can avoid.i miss you.those songs that, for some time are just nice songs to me, have started to sink their meanings in again. iow, they're songs that i usually associate with you once.i miss you.i'm almost out of my mind keeping it all inside, trying very hard to accept and push it all aside at the same time.i miss you.i can almost remember everything that i know about you. things that i make it a point to remember. things that i suddenly found i can remember although it wasn't imprinted in my mind in the first place.i miss you.i wish i can just see you, even for a brief moment. yes you were in my dreams, and i saw you there. but those were just dreams.cos boy, i miss you badly. i really really do.but maybe i have to distance myself from you, from all of this.i thought i was over you. i thought i had loved you less.how was i to know it's never gone?Breakdown by Mariah CareyKrayzie:
Break break down,
Steady breakin me on down, break break down,
Steady breakin me on down,
Break break down, steady breakin me on down,
Break break down, steady breakin me on down.
Mariah:
You called yesterday to basicallly say
That you care for me,
But that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended
To be feeling similarly
And led you to believe it was o.k
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me
Chorus:
Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry
Mariah:
So what do you do
When somebody you're so devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you
And it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
And sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way?"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away
Wish:
Yeah, c' mon, yeah, c' mon, c' mon
Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry
Wish:
It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crazy situations rocking my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it ( forget it)
Krayzie:
I be feelin' like you bringing me down
Taking me around
Stressin' me out
I think i better go and get out
And let me release some stress ( stress )
Wish:Don't ever wanna feel no pain ( pain )
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain ( rain, rain, rain )
Lord, I just wanna maintain
Krayzie:
Yeah, I can feel pressures ya'll
But never the less
Krayzie won't fall
It's over, it's ending here ( here )
Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry
11:10 pm
