Sunday, April 27, 2008
Om Shanti Om rocks!
ahemm.. i now officially re-instate myself as a Shah Rukh Khan fan(:
whoo! even though he's older than my parents at 40-odd years old, he is still hot maha hot!
anyway, 2 things dampened my high-ness from the afternoon (which was spent tutoring my cousins before eating while watching om shanti om). man utd lost to chelsea, so that explains part of it. the other one..well..if i can lift from Jay Chou's song, bu neng shuo de mi mi.
i know a lot of things happened. i was really mad at you yesterday, but then as usual you did something to make me un-mad at you.
but today, whatever happened - or didn't happen - ... i'm sorry.
i don't want things between us to go down the wire.
if we're both sulking, who's there left to cajole us?
as much as i want to approach you, i no longer know how to...
half of the time, i don't even understand the things between us. or where i am in this matter. i simply don't know what else to do.
maybe fate let us meet to separate us. but maybe not.
are we different people now? i know you, but sometimes i can't help feeling i no longer knew you. sometimes i feel like i'm dealing with a complete stranger, not you - i don't know where you went.
i know people think i overreact to things in a way that is not rightfully mine - but when my heart is yours, how do i not? how do i explain all the signs that i get if something happened or is going to happen to you? those instances when i felt what you were feeling?
i'm so tired of everything. i just want to sit down and cry.
but that'll be worse; everytime it happens, i wished you were there - although the reason for the tears might be because i'm mad at you.
i just feel so lost. confused. empty.
i don't know who to turn to, who to talk to. i don't know who'd understand.
i miss you. terribly.
but when fate denied us again, again and again... i'm just lost.
how do i go from here?
i'm lost. i just feel so lost. i don't know where we are, how we are, what to do. i don't know how to carry on.
things between us are just getting worse each day. and in spite of all these, i don't want to lose you.
i don't know what i'll be, what i'll do if you leave my life.
1:26 am
