Tuesday, February 19, 2008
i'm so fucking sick of facades, ambiguity, bothering to make an effort, trying not to hurt people's feelings, giving-and-taking where i gave too much, shutting up about certain issues because i was trying to be considerate, keeping in mind how my actions will affect others, trying to figure out who're my close friends and my friends and my acquantainces, noting that my presence makes no difference, my friendship is sidelined, my care is belittled.
oh what the fuck. i'm just so sick of all the pretentious, hyprocritical people in my life.
truth be told, i get the feeling that nothing good will come out from being nice to people. seriously. you always end up being taken lightly or for granted.
i'm past the limit where i bother to care because it just ends up pointless and wasted.
sometimes when friendships drift apart, i can't help but blame myself. but then again, it's a two-way street. sometimes i'm so sick of trying to re-forge them. cos when it always turns out to be a one-way street, what's the point?
anyway, i am so gonna strangle farid. orang sms bukannya nak balas. hishh. jitak kepala baru tahu.
9:59 pm
