Tuesday, February 12, 2008
i have to wake up in 4 hours time, but i just can't bring myself to sleep.
anyway, on a more random note, added baihakki and norfasarie on friendster. ~whee. i heard that they're gonna get married some time in june this year? i'm pretty excited about that, cos they are like the david and victoria beckham of singapore (i.e. footballer and singer/actress, who in this case is also an air stewardess). and anyway, all the best to their careers!
i was listening to Cassiopeia by Rain and Lim Jeong-Hee to sleep last night, and what was crafted up in my mind was slightly...off. i don't know whether it's trying to tell me something, or it's just dismissible. but...i don't know. when i handed him over to her in my dreams, although i was shattered, it felt like the right thing to do. i just backed off.
these past few days have been...discerning? one minute i can simply be so happy, and even plan what to get for occasions months down the road. the next minute i'll be tearing.
maybe that dream was a sign, that the best thing to do is to set the person that you love free.
dan tak mungkin untukku
tuk menggapai cintamu
walau rasa di hati ingin memilikimu
cinta harus berkorban
walau harus menunggu selamanya
ku tahu kau bukan milikku
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and it's impossible for me
to reach out for your love
although deep down i want you to be mine
love needs to sacrifice
although this wait will last forever
cos i know that you're not mine
1:18 am
