Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I don't wanna let u go
I don't wanna let u go
Even as time passes by, my unchanging heart
You're still my love; I can't throw away the fact that you're my love
If you saw, how funny you'd find it
Without change, you're still my love
~ Cassiopeia by Rain and Lim Jeong-Hee
i don't want to let you go, but if that's the right thing to do, then i will.
i just realised this morning before i went to sleep, that the answer that i was searching for was right in front of me: i have to let you go, i have to be accepting that you're with her.
yes, i have accepted it fully, but it's just so hard to face the truth. how can i let you go? why in the world did i even decide to let you go to her?
我 真 的 没有天 份
wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really do not have a talent
安 静 的 没 这 麽 快
an jing de mei zhe me kuai
Won't become silent this fast
我 会 学 着 放 弃 你
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up
是 因 为 我 太 爱 你
shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
It is because I love you too much
they say that if you love someone, you should set them free. i have set you free.
it's just a huge blow for me. for a while, i'm just at loss and i simply don't care about what's happening in my life.
i know that some people have been coming up to me and asking what happened. i can't tell them.
i guess it all sparked off when i dreamt up of something while listening to Cassiopeia. i never expected that my dream will end up like that. a day after that, i realized it. i couldn't come to terms with it, still can't come to terms with it.
i know some people will scoff when they find out what i'm doing. the whole being noble thing that happens in books and films. but i'm doing it; that's what i'm doing.
on one hand, this is like giving in. on the other hand, this is sacrifice on my part. a sacrifice that only i know. i won't lie; it's killing me. it's hurting badly. i don't know where to go from here. i admit; i don't want to lose you - i'm not sure i can bear losing you. but i'll put all that aside for your sake.
If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold
If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and i are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you
Boy you know i love you, i can't deny
It hurts so much but it's
best for us
So i'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go
So why don't you go your way
And i'll go mine
Live your life, and i'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and i'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated
~ Separated by Usher
i just love you so much.but i'll keep it to myself till the time is right.
7:58 pm
