Tuesday, January 08, 2008
manusia-manusia macam tembok ni semua kan. memang patut dihentak kepala kat simen yang palingg keras sekali and diberitahu secara direct apa sebenarnya yang ada kat dalam kepala aku. hishh.
note the plural at the end of the word 'friendships'. you know what? i am so sick of trying to make it up to them. cos hey, who leaves the other party out even in broad daylight? and when they look like they don't care (or waiting for me to come round and apologise?), it hurts. sarcasm is a double-bladed sword; you scar them, you scar yourselves. but i am so sick of it. so so sick of it. if they understand that, then good. otherwise, please refer to the first paragraph.
am i sounding sensitive or peevish? i'm not. my patience has worn thin. in fact, it's worn out. how much longer can you just keep on forgiving and forgiving for over a year when the other party still is like that, still doesn't seem the need to re-adjust and change?
i'm not cruel or heartless. but at the same time i have to do this.
debb, sam, viv, shijia and the rest, please don't make me believe that this friendship is artificial. if you really want me out of it, tell me straight in the face. i don't want to be the one blowing up this issue in your faces. because you'll see me in a different light.
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