Tuesday, January 22, 2008
i haven't been feeling all too calm or relaxed like my usual self these past few days. sure, i crap in class and look like as if i'm having one helluva of a fun. i don't deny that. but at the same time i'm just crapping more cos that's a way to forget everything momentarily.
i haven't been at ease since last week. sometime before chem started, i suddenly had this fleeting thought: if something's wrong with _, my test-tube will break. and sure enough it did. and then the whole day, i just felt so uneasy. i don't know. i was praying when i got another sudden fleeting feeling that something's gonna happen to _ tomorrow. i'm just so scared. just so so scared. i don't know what i'd do if....this just added on to the whirlwind of confusion that has taken my life by storm recently. i'm just so....lost.i realised something, but it's just something i have to keep silent about.
and one more thing: my deepest condolences to the family and friends of the late Heath Ledger. he was a great actor, and it was such a shame to see him go so soon. may he rest in peace.
11:44 pm
