Sunday, December 02, 2007
" Semusim telah ku lalui
Telah ku lewati tanpa dirimu
Tetapi bayang wajahmu
Masih tersimpan di hati "
~ Semusim oleh Marcell
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" A season has passed
I went through it without you
But the picture of your face
Is still kept in this heart "
~ A Season by Marcell
for L (BC should know. umai should know as well, kan?) as well as A (umai should know that person from my past. BC, gotta ask me).
i just realised that i was pretty spaced-out today. so yeah..score one for my blur-ness.
i..well. ever since i ran into A yesterday, i've been...thinking. between A and L..to be frank they're total opposites. i know i know, A is in my past. but L..has changed. a lot. until i feel like i don't know L anymore. that's not to say that A is still the same because after that one embarrassingly-daring incident a few years back, we haven't been talking and usually act as if both of us are see-through, so i don't really know for sure.
but seeing the way A talks to his mum, the way A carries himself...almost the same as the few years back. almost exactly the same as the few years back. maybe it's just A's quiet and cool nature.
L is...how do i say it? L can make me very happy one minute, piss me off the next, then make me cry and still be the one that gives me strength. i'll change the 'can' to 'used to'. L is just completely different now. more often than not i'm just hurt by how different L is. they say that love can survive the distance and time - as long as the person doesn't change. so when the person changes...it hurts. there's also a saying that the person you used to love the most can turn out to be the person you hate the most. but i don't want that to happen. maybe..just maybe, there's still traces of the old L.
it has been so long and still, A's still like that: quiet, cool-headed, unassuming..in short, A's very..calming. which was slightly ironic as A used to like dragsters (a type of race cars) which are well-known as speed-demons. and oh yeah, A used to ride a bicycle to school. and A's favourite colour combination was sky blue and grey. lols. the grin, the face..A wasn't that good-looking and he didn't use to make it up with his height. but A's much taller now...but the face is still the same. the same grin. in the past, i didn't know why i fell for A. even now, i don't think i know.
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