i tried hard not to break down today but i did. but at least it was during the free period, not before. there's a line in the song 'My Heart' that went, "If we love somebody could we be this strong.." My answer? yes, and no. yes because it helps you find your inner strength that maybe you never knew about. no because.. it can also be your ultimate weakness.
i've been trying very hard to get over you. sometimes i think that i'm trying too hard. but why is it that the more i try to get over you, the deeper i fall for you? why is it that you're the only one that can really put back the smile on my lips, make me laugh even though you're the same reason i'm crying? i want you but i don't want you in my life at the same time. sometimes i just hate you for making me feel this way. but other times, i just can't stop myself from falling for you.
tak sanggup aku kehilangan... sometimes i wonder, am i wrong for loving you like this? my friends have moved on, healed back their hearts. but why am i still struggling to get over you?
maybe i shouldn't even try. maybe i should just let my heart decide. if it still refuses to push you away, then what am i to do? i can't keep on lying to myself, telling myself i'm over you when deep down, when i'm all alone and faced with only my own reflection, i know i'm not. i know i still love you.
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu...
ily. maybe that's all that needed to be acknowledged.
11:04 pm
the one
Nur Syafiqah Ahmad Jaaffar
ex-WGPS 6E'04
Crescent Girl's School
syaf_316@hotmail.com
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