Thursday, October 18, 2007
got back the rest of my fye results today. was quite pleased overall, although i think bio sort of spoiled it a little. the rest was kinda unexpected, in a good way. then had ice-cream with vivien and teran on the way home. ran into aleena and some of the LD girls at cheers, but i think they pretty much close one eye on the three of us - plus para, so that's four - giving the LD session a miss. to put it simply, we weren't quite in the mood to audition for the VJC drama audition thingey.
to be honest, i don't even know what i'm doing with my life nowadays. maybe i'm trying to rebuild it. but after de-socialising for quite some time, the whole re-socialising concept seems weird and pretty stiff. sometimes i don't even know what to talk about to the people around me, or my friends even. sure, i can just sit one corner and let my life eff the hell outta itself, but what gain is that gonna bring me? at times i get fed-up with the whole "i don't have anything to talk about" thing that it irritates the hell outta me. so that's why nowadays i talk about general stuffs (excluding the weather cos i never care much about it.. and besides, that topic is reserved for debbie) and even if it comes to my personal stuff, it's just a matter of touch-and-go.
i've failed, am failing and still failing in trying to get over you. suddenly i just miss you so much..i guess i miss talking to you. knowing that there's someone who can understand me and talk me round when things aren't going right. making me smile and laugh again. there's a bunch of stuffs, some explainable, some not. but when i tire from hiding behind the brick wall of life, you're the only one i can turn to, the only one i want to turn to...Salah Jatuh Cinta oleh Agnes MonicaKau seperti cermin
Yang tekah usang dan berdebu
Sebarkan noda di hati ku
Berkalang awan kelabu di sini
Ku seperti kapas
Yang putih lemah dan terkulai
Meratapi cinta yang hitam
Ku jatuh cinta, jatuh cinta yang salah
(Korus)
Bersama mu serasi
Hati dan cinta ku bernyawa
Namun mengapa barulah kini
Ku bertemu dengan mu
Ku tak sendiri dan kau telah berdua
Ku sering menatap awan
Andai ku bisa jadi burung
Bisa hinggap di mana saja
Setiap saat bisa melihat kau dengannya
Getir...
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Falling For The Wrong Love by Agnes MonicaYou are like a mirror
That never becomes old and dusty
Spreading dirt on my heart
Cushioned by the grey clouds here
I'm like cotton
that's white, weak and flailing
crying over the dark love
i've fallen in love, fallen for the wrong love
(Chorus)
Together you're compatible
My heart and love are alive
But why is it that only now
I found you
I'm not alone and you're with her
I always gaze at the clouds
If I could be a bird
Able to perch anywhere
Able to see you with her every second
How it hurts...
while i'm tired of pretending, it's something i'll have to carry on doing to hide my weakness.
8:43 pm
