Monday, October 29, 2007
dragged myself to reach school around 11.25am. ok, fine, i was nearly 30 minutes late for lesson and the last student to report for the lesson, but what the ikan bilislah. ran into denise at the corridor. haha. denise is so funny! she was like, "syafiqah! so late ah! tsktsk!" then we walked up to the PAT and talked about some random stuffs. then sat with ferind and got really pissed by the people sitting at the back. if i had it my way, i'd have just stood up and yelled "woi! can shut up anot? you think this is what, your father's PAT issit? even if it is, but you don't want to listen, take your bags and get your a** out of the place lah. we won't lose anything one."
after that was boring boring english persuasive course. ended up having the paper conversation with ferind, jes lee, vaish and debbie to entertain ourselves.
then lunched with vaish and ferind. hahaha. we crapped and laughed so much until my hips hurt. then vaish had to tell ferind how the japanese pronounce their 'chicken' and then we kept repeating it until cannot tahan ready, so dang funnyy. and then while i was eating my zinger, suddenly jeng jeng jeng.. i saw farid's brother and his friends having their lunch at the table next to ours. at first i wasn't too sure, but then when i saw that the guy's face was a spitting image of rid, and his voice was near the same, it was like "confirm abang farid nii.." haha. then accompanied ferind to buy her Potato mag and saw a lot of the japanese fashion mags that i was eyeing for so long like Seventeen, Cawaii, JJ and Viva. then mrt-ed home. got a killer headache in the middle of the train ride, though.
you know the feeling when you've been out for so long then you're back and it's hell trying to fit back into things? it's annoying. seriously. not much on the sad part. more of annoyed and irritated. and then it's like, i've already picked myself up, breathed new humour into myself to the extent that i can't stand myself (chic-can.. huhuhu..guess what it actually is), fitting back in suddenly seems like something that i don't want to bother to do cos like wth, end up feeling like lamp-post. that's why they said that life ain't easy, and every experience that we go through in life makes us a stronger person. experiences shaped me into who i am today. 5-6 years ago, i toughened my character up from the softie because of a major heartbreak. 8 months ago i learned to soften myself. 7 days ago i learned to rectify my life. and you know why my life is so complex, such that only me and a few people can truly understand it? cos it's my life, and cos this is me. take it or leave it.
on my way home, i just missed you so much. how am i gonna lead these weeks without you? but at least your smses yesterday and the days before gave me a reason to smile. maybe it's true; you're the key. i don't care what people say. let me listen to my heart.
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