Friday, August 10, 2007
confusion kicks in again today. sighs.. i don't know.. i just don't understand what i'm feeling. the more i try to understand, the more confused i'll get. it just doesn't make sense. and the more i try to not think about it, it seems to want to settle in my brain more. so yeah, nothing about rivers and their processes stuck in my head.
it's highly confusing that it's almost frightening. and i feel it but i don't show the feeling when it matters most. at certain times, i feel concerned, worried etc but i made no point to show even the hint of it to _ ; i just keep it to myself. and sometimes end up regretting not showing it.
i don't know.. i'm duly confused and i don't know what to do about it. i know i shouldn't be thinking too much about this since common tests are coming, but i can't even focus on anything.
but what am i to do when the one person who can truly understand me is the one i'm confused about?
[tahukah engkau wahai langit, ku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya?]
[heaven don't you know, how i long to meet and stroke his face?]
12:01 am
