Tuesday, August 19, 2008
came to school with a recurring tension headache. i don't like it. it hurts. and i can't have things both ways: it's either i stay up late, or i'm stressed/thinking too much. if i do both, i'll be getting those headaches again. and i don't know. it feels like i have to keep on depending on my painkillers to ease it off.
but towards the end of the day, i felt better. so i started the whole post-it convo thingy with the Back Five. and yeah. it got olga to turn around to ask why we were so high. we can't help it, i guess. we're always like that when we're stuck in mundane stuffs.
aborted my plan for starbucks and headed home. only to be locked out of my own house thanks to me not having my house keys. sat outside for an hour plus until my parents came back. luckily i had OCK currypuffs with me. and my geog textbook. i've never been so focused on human geog before. and oh, then the ice cream uncle started ringing the bell downstairs so i bought an ice cream, sat outside my door and ate it.
more eating ensued after my parents came back. so much for my reduced-carbo diet.
then wrote a song. more of lyrics. i have the tune in my head, but i don't know how to play it on the guitar so i couldnt jot down the chords. but when i wrote it, the main instrument playing in my head was more of the piano rather than the guitar.
not mind-blowing, but i had to get my thoughts and feelings out. and since there's no melody, well, you can create your own. but please, this lyrics is mine. if you want to use it, please tell me and not just steal it. it's evil, it's wrong and it hurts.
GoneIf you are gone
How will my life be like?
Will the stars still shine for me
Or like the sun
it'll fade into the night?
# I look out the window
Searching for an answer
But all that is staring back at me
Is the dark and emptiness
* So I know that if you're gone
That's what my heart will be like
Cold and empty, inside out
Thirsting for a drop of love
Guess that's what I'm gonna feel
When you're gone
#*
I never understood why
You enter and leave my life
Can you hear the plea for you to stay
I love you, don't go away
*
When you're gone
After you're gone
How will my life be like?
Will the stars still shine for me
Or like the sun
It'll fade into the night?
8:25 pm
