Tuesday, March 18, 2008
i hate school. except for a few people. but i hate school. really. i've never hated school so much.
anyway, found something to add to my life's principles:
Forgive your enemies, but don't forget their names - John F. Kennedy.i think it's so true. you can forgive people, but you simply can't forget what they've done to you. not when it's been on countless occasions and you've given them so much chances, your patience's running thin.
to be honest, i kinda had an emotional breakdown after school today. actually, i started feeling so fcuked up during chem. then it was just there and dragged all the way home. i think talking to yourself helps a lot. as in, you imagine you're talking to someone else i.e. someone you wish you could talk it all out to. then you let it all out. then...i don't know. you can somehow know what the person would say or you'd just know that even if you spilled it all in real life, the person would listen. i don't know. it helps to clear your mind up and make you feel much better. but i guess that only works with one or two people in your life. with others..well, it doesn't seem to work out.
i've never really feel a deep connection to my school. sad, but true. i don't know. i find it hard to fit in 100% and stuffs. maybe it's me. maybe it's the people. maybe it's the school.
i don't know. when you walk around and see a lot of hypocritical people all around, it's just so sickening, y'know? sometimes i wish i can't tell how people are - then i wouldn't be aware of this thing and find things all the more stressful for me.
i'm not stressed out by my workload. it's pretty okay. i still have a lot of free time.
but it's the people most of the time.
aku tahu last time aku dapat rasa yang kau ada masalah. betul-betul tak tenang hati aku untuk seminggu lebih. tapi, sekarang ni, aku macam berbelah-bagi: on one hand, aku taknak kau tahu atau dapat agak tentang masalah aku ni - aku taknak kau risau. cukup kerja2 kau sekarang ni makin banyak. tapi on the other hand, i wish kau dapat rasa. cos maybe then, it'll feel much lighter. much much lighter.kulo tresno.
12:32 am
