Friday, February 29, 2008

i'm just gonna use song lyrics to explain whatever i feel today.

There came a crossing on the road
If only there were signs to show me
Which direction I should go
I live my life with no regrets
It hasn't caught up on me yet
Well I never knew I was losing you
~ Never Knew I Was Losing You by Westlife

So much to say
But where do I start
Would you listen if I spoke from the heart
It's simple things that keep us apart
~ Don't Let Me Go by Westlife

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
~ Soledad by Westlife

Cos when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn't rhyme without you
When I see how my path
Seem to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars
~ Written In The Stars by Westlife

A soothing breeze always blows
Somebody understands another soul
It's like the planets have aligned
Every sentence has a rhyme
When a woman loves a man
~ When A Woman Loves A Man by Westlife

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory
Will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I've found my way
Back to your arms again
~ Queen Of My Heart by Westlife

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
~I Still by BSB

Memories
The love I left behind
I still think about it all the time
Nothing stays the same
Maybe I'm to blame
Oh I, I'd do it all again

There's a place
I can't let go
Holding all the dreams I used to know
I wish it was the same
I guess no one's to blame
But I, I'd do it all again
~ Memories by BSB

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love
~ Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

Dinginnya malam itu bagai salju
Tidak sedingin perasaanmu
Kau sengaja membina dinding pemisah
Di antara kita tak lagi bersemuka

Kekasih ku... ku rasakan perlu
Menitip surat buat tatapan mu
Sekali ini aku rela merendah diri beralah
Agar perhubungan terjalin semula

Kehangatan mentari dingin salju
Bertukar ganti hari ke hari
Aku masih di sini
Sabar menanti
_______________________________
(translations)
The coldness of the night was like snow
But not as cold as your attitude
You purposely erected this wall
So that we'll never meet again

I think there's a need
To write a note for you
For once I'm willing to admit defeat and give in
So that this relationship can be rebuilt

The warmth of the sun and the snow's chilliness
Alternates as the days pass
I'm still here
Patiently waiting
~ Kemaafan Dendam Yang Terindah by Aishah

11:11 pm

CT results were wayy off my targets, except for EL and Bio, where i surpassed my targets.
and btw, did i mention that there's a huge possibilty i'm gonna flunk that A Math paper real bad? i'd be lucky to even reach 10/40.

anyway, yesterday i did some random online quizzes, and i promised Debs i'm gonna post it, so there you go. for our self-entertainment =p

You Are Downtown

You're a funky spirit that requires freedom to live.

Your city girl persona needs adventure, diversity, and great pizza.

What Syafiqah Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.

You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.

Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

i'm so glad you're back.

1:10 am

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

CT today was french connection united kingdom-ed out, so drop the whole topic. hml paper 2 and chem was pretty okay. amath was a confirmed single digit failure.

took an hour to write out some special cards for some of my classmates. treat it like a VDay prezzie reply, people.

had a laugh-out-loud MSN convo with Syafiq Saad. that's our first MSN convo since years. he's still the same - laugh-out-loud hilarious.

just felt like listening to Backstreet Boys when i reached home.
i'm terribly missing some stuffs and people from my life now.
i'm missing you.

** What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child that I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

**

Who will want to say this life
That it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this life
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna stay the rest of my life

**

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, remember you
How did I fall in love with you?

~ How Did I Fall In Love With You (minus Verse 1) by BSB

good question - how did i fall in love with you?
i keep telling myself, now that i seldom see you around, maybe it can help me forget you. but the less i see you, the more i miss you.
i wish i could turn back time and relive those moments with you.
i've never felt so incomplete.

10:55 pm

Sunday, February 24, 2008

ditch all those women leaders that we learned during CME last year. rather than discussing and admiring dead women politicians (respected, no doubt), they should have introduced us to her instead.

with all of my utmost respect and admiration, Sophia Magdelena Scholl (1921-1943) :

taken from http://www.runner-up.org/2005/02/06/sophie-scholl-1921-1943/ :

Sophie Scholl was a student in Munich when the war began. She and her older
brother Hans were horrified at what was happening in their country under the
Nazi regime, and along with a few friends and one of their professors, started a
resistance movement called Die Weiße Rose (The White Rose).

They published six such leaflets over the course of 1942 and into 1943. It
was while distributing the sixth leaflet at the University of Munich on February
18, 1943 that Sophie was arrested by the Gestapo, along with her brother Hans
and their friend Christoph Probst. They were condemned to death on February 22nd
and were executed by guillotine only a few hours later. Sophie Scholl was 21
years old.

"Somebody, after all, had to make a start. What we wrote and
said is also believed by many others. They just don't dare express themselves as
we did."
~ Statement to the Volksgerichtshof [People's Court] of
Judge Roland Freisler (21 February 1943)

so why the sudden salute to Sophie Scholl? well, i watched Sophie Scholl - The Final Days movie this afternoon, and i've never been so moved and inspired by a movie for a long time! the show trial was one of the most powerful scenes in the movie. and i was tearing by the time Sophie, her brother and their friend were brought to the guillotine for their execution. truly a brilliant piece!

11:48 pm

Saturday, February 23, 2008

chemistry and history revision cleared. left with some brushing up on maths to do and then it'll be all over on tuesday. pheww!

anyway, heard Westlife's new songs - well, not exactly new since it was from last year/early this year. i can't believe it; they're really back! no more disappointing cover versions. just plain, old westlife. i'm missing my boybands terribly, like Blue, Boyzone and the old Westlife. Backstreet Boys' comeback was sensational and their songs are a constant on my playlist.

towards the evening, ended up thinking about a few things. sometimes i can't understand it. sometimes i refuse to understand it.

this morning i missed you suddenly. wondered what you'd be wearing today. when i reached school, you were the first person that i saw across the parade square. and you were wearing what i guessed that you would wear.

i want you back in my life, please. my life feels so empty, so incomplete without you.

1:30 am

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

i'm so fucking sick of facades, ambiguity, bothering to make an effort, trying not to hurt people's feelings, giving-and-taking where i gave too much, shutting up about certain issues because i was trying to be considerate, keeping in mind how my actions will affect others, trying to figure out who're my close friends and my friends and my acquantainces, noting that my presence makes no difference, my friendship is sidelined, my care is belittled.

oh what the fuck. i'm just so sick of all the pretentious, hyprocritical people in my life.

truth be told, i get the feeling that nothing good will come out from being nice to people. seriously. you always end up being taken lightly or for granted.

i'm past the limit where i bother to care because it just ends up pointless and wasted.
sometimes when friendships drift apart, i can't help but blame myself. but then again, it's a two-way street. sometimes i'm so sick of trying to re-forge them. cos when it always turns out to be a one-way street, what's the point?

anyway, i am so gonna strangle farid. orang sms bukannya nak balas. hishh. jitak kepala baru tahu.

9:59 pm

when i first heard his voice a few years back, i was simply mesmerized - it sounded like an angel.

LEE RYAN (:

haha. actually i've loved his voice ever since he was in Blue. but of course back then Blue was still a group, and Lee hasn't moved on to his solo singing career yet.

i've been reading about him on the net and watched a few vids, and i tell you, he's hilarious. every interview that i watched, i end up laughing.

and anw, thanks umai for intro-ing me to Ms Swan. HAHA! i don't know what i'd do if i ever meet someone like her!

1:24 am

Saturday, February 16, 2008

i found this song terribly sweet. thanks youtube!

translations for Nunca Te Olvidare (I'll Never Forget You) by Enrique Iglesias:

Three thousand years can pass
You can kiss other lips,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you.

I can die tomorrow.
My soul can dry up.
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you.

They can erase my memory.
They can rob me of your story,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you.

How could I forget your smile.
How could I forget your stares.
How could I forget the prayers so that you wouldn't leave.

How could I forget your craziness.
How could I forget your tempers.
How could I forget that I love you even more now than ever.

Three thousand years can pass.
You can kiss other lips,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you.

I can die tomorrow.
My soul can dry up,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you.

You can throw me out of your life.
You can deny that you ever cared,
But I'll never forget you.
I know that I'll never forget you.

How could I forget your smile.
How could I forget your stares.
How could I forget the prayers so that you wouldn't leave.

How could I forget your craziness.
How could I forget your tempers.
How could I forget that I love you even more now than ever.

Three thousand years can go by.
You can kiss other lips,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you,
But I'll never forget you.

8:31 pm

i officially hate vectors, thank you very much - it's annoying. waste of my correction tape.

today was slightly better than the past few days. at least i sounded crazy enough today in school. the back five were history politicians today - castro, stalin, hitler, mussolini and err..laura-lini (which was changed to khrushchev after a while). but we weren't chaotic or what. lols. except for recess - ferind was stuffing her face with the biscuits. then she was like, "eh, i eat 8 biscuits already but i'm still hungry eh." which invited laughters from the back-four and crystal. then there was the whole "she's still stuck in the toilet" back in class. i didn't know that crystal could be that funny!

morning was a bit weird. reached school, you just pulled up into your parking lot. then i was greeted by the sight of an empty parade square except for the UGs. it was either the school was late or i was early (surprisingly, it was the latter). ran into laura at the stairs and decided to just remain at the ground floor rather than go to class. then ran into you at the mini forum. it was...awkward. like, i'm turning away not to look at you, and vice-versa. why, i have no idea.

sometimes i think that my mood is somewhat related to yours. for no reason last night i was high. this morning i was super sleepy, feeling like i had 2 hours worth of sleep although i slept early last night, and then you turned up looking the same. then when my mood picked up in the later part of the day, i saw that yours had picked up as well. i'd like to believe it's coincidence.

Enrique Iglesias's Donde Estan Corazon (Where Are You My Love or Where's My Heart) was sweet. but i couldn't find the song. and i heard his song, Push, which is Step Up 2's soundtrack - it's very R&B.

i say hey, whatever.

12:34 am

Thursday, February 14, 2008

firstly, thank you to all of my friends for all the Valentine's Day wishes and gifts. ILY guys!

i don't know whether to call it coincidence or what. i thought of you in that black shirt yesterday, and then today you wore that. your hairstyle today was like my brother's, to add to the fact that the both of you use the same cologne/body spray. i wish... i could spend the whole day with you. i miss you so much. life is just so different without you.

i don't know whether i did the right thing by letting you go.

suddenly a while ago, Bop Bop Baby played in my mind although i haven't heard the song for the past few years - i wasn't a fan of the song in the first place. but when these lines popped into my head, i wonder if i'm doing the right thing:

Now that we've gone our separate ways
I just can't live these desperate days
This is what I've been trying to say

Ooh da bop bop baby
please don't let me go
Can't live my life this way
Ooh da bop bop baby please just let me know
And put my mind at ease for sure

when the song popped into my head, i was thinking of you. wondering if you knew. deciding whether i should tell you in the end. then those lines started playing, and persisted.

you know, sometimes i think Westlife: Unbreakable: The Greatest Hits Vol. 1 is like the musical storybook of my life. or maybe it's just that i love Westlife, and they happen to have the songs that relate well to my life.

Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do

11:21 pm

quick review of Maybelline's HyperCurl Turbo Boost mascara.

i bought and tried this out quite some time back, but just haven't got around to talking about it yet. as a gauge as to how effective it is:

i was quite pleased with the results because not only was my eyelashes volumised after 1-2 coats, it became more curled as well (seeing that my lashes weren't exactly curled despite using an eyelash curler). retailing at $16.90 at all leading department stores and personal care stores.

cheat: use a lengthening mascara before this mascara. or use lengthening mascara at the tip of your lashes after the putting on HyperCurl. this can give the fake lashes effect.

11:21 pm

retrospective of my V-Day:

Valentine's Day by Linkin Park

My insides all turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path had lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone, and I was wrong
I never knew what it was like, to be alone

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)
___________________________________
for you. happy valentine's day...

Everyday I Love You by Boyzone

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you

I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you more
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

12:25 am

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I don't wanna let u go
I don't wanna let u go
Even as time passes by, my unchanging heart
You're still my love; I can't throw away the fact that you're my love
If you saw, how funny you'd find it

Without change, you're still my love
~ Cassiopeia by Rain and Lim Jeong-Hee

i don't want to let you go, but if that's the right thing to do, then i will.
i just realised this morning before i went to sleep, that the answer that i was searching for was right in front of me: i have to let you go, i have to be accepting that you're with her.
yes, i have accepted it fully, but it's just so hard to face the truth. how can i let you go? why in the world did i even decide to let you go to her?

我真的没有天份
wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really do not have a talent
安静的没这麽快
an jing de mei zhe me kuai
Won't become silent this fast
我会学着放弃你
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up
是因为我太爱你
shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
It is because I love you too much

they say that if you love someone, you should set them free. i have set you free.
it's just a huge blow for me. for a while, i'm just at loss and i simply don't care about what's happening in my life.
i know that some people have been coming up to me and asking what happened. i can't tell them.

i guess it all sparked off when i dreamt up of something while listening to Cassiopeia. i never expected that my dream will end up like that. a day after that, i realized it. i couldn't come to terms with it, still can't come to terms with it.
i know some people will scoff when they find out what i'm doing. the whole being noble thing that happens in books and films. but i'm doing it; that's what i'm doing.

on one hand, this is like giving in. on the other hand, this is sacrifice on my part. a sacrifice that only i know. i won't lie; it's killing me. it's hurting badly. i don't know where to go from here. i admit; i don't want to lose you - i'm not sure i can bear losing you. but i'll put all that aside for your sake.

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and i are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

Boy you know i love you, i can't deny
It hurts so much but it's
best for us
So i'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And i'll go mine
Live your life, and i'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and i'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated
~ Separated by Usher

i just love you so much.
but i'll keep it to myself till the time is right.

7:58 pm

i have to wake up in 4 hours time, but i just can't bring myself to sleep.

anyway, on a more random note, added baihakki and norfasarie on friendster. ~whee. i heard that they're gonna get married some time in june this year? i'm pretty excited about that, cos they are like the david and victoria beckham of singapore (i.e. footballer and singer/actress, who in this case is also an air stewardess). and anyway, all the best to their careers!

i was listening to Cassiopeia by Rain and Lim Jeong-Hee to sleep last night, and what was crafted up in my mind was slightly...off. i don't know whether it's trying to tell me something, or it's just dismissible. but...i don't know. when i handed him over to her in my dreams, although i was shattered, it felt like the right thing to do. i just backed off.

these past few days have been...discerning? one minute i can simply be so happy, and even plan what to get for occasions months down the road. the next minute i'll be tearing.

maybe that dream was a sign, that the best thing to do is to set the person that you love free.

dan tak mungkin untukku
tuk menggapai cintamu
walau rasa di hati ingin memilikimu
cinta harus berkorban
walau harus menunggu selamanya
ku tahu kau bukan milikku
_________________________
and it's impossible for me
to reach out for your love
although deep down i want you to be mine
love needs to sacrifice
although this wait will last forever
cos i know that you're not mine

1:18 am

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I remember when you used to know when I was hurting.

I remember when you used to know I needed understanding.
There used to be a time when I wasn't questioned.
There used to be a time when I wasn't pushed aside.

I remember when you took the time to go to a quiet place to talk with me.
There used to be a time when my feelings weren't laughed at.
There used to be a time when I wasn't taken for granted.

Do you remember?
Or am i just another passing figure in your life?
________________________________________________

tomorrow will be the start of a promising, forgettable week for me. how nice.

watched Just Like Heaven on VCD this afternoon. it was hilarious, especially when drew barrymore tried to get mark ruffalo out of her (and his) apartment. but the ending was sweet. lols.

to lighten things up, i'm currently crapping with umai. i love her lah seyy. when you put me and her together, we never fail to end up crapping. hiahiahia. tonight, we received 'wedding invitations' from Princess Kena Baling and her groom, akutakRELA. HAHAHA. sorry rid, kitaorang sakat kau lagi. get well soon ehk?

anyway, the 'wedding invitation', courtesy of yours truly. (background image courtesy of luckyoliver.com) :

now i'm off to pack my stuffs to attend the royal wedding of the milennium. all the flights are full, so i guess i'll have to settle for akutakRELA's carriage that's specially catered to moi and umai, his bosses. kwang3.

is this the feeling i need to walk with?
tell me why i can't be there where you are
there's something missing in my heart
you are missing in my heart

10:48 pm

thinking of changing my jukebox again. still on music: Westlife's Home was beautiful. it just sounded so sweet and light. michael buble's sounded a bit heavy. maybe it's the whole boyband vs solo thing. but Westlife's MV for Home was pretty sweet. and i bought The Wedding Album - finally. just as i expected, it was simply very sweet, with a compilation of some of the sweetest love songs. but i think they should have added Mariah Carey's Hero in it as well.

this year's middle of february is something forgettable for my friends, especially. not so much for me, cos my issue isn't as huge as theirs. i just wish that their bf/gf can realise their mistakes (or as umai would put it sometimes, fat chance). truth be told, sometimes i feel like going up to their bf/gf and give them a piece of my mind. apparently umai just gave me permission. grrr. i hate seeing my friends end up like this. they are not emotionless tunggulS, alright??

as for myself. well. although i wish that thursday will just be like in my dreams, i don't think it'll ever happen. for all the right, logical reasons.

wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
shi yin wei wo tai ai ni

1:09 am

Saturday, February 09, 2008

if the approaching of valentine's day is anything to go by... well, it's not exactly eventful. more on that later. but random advertising: anybody wanna do nice frame-ups for their photos for V-Dae, please approach me. i feel like photo-editing nowadays. even the frames are in place.

back to the topic. the approaching of V-Dae. eventful for my friends (in the not-so-happy sense), less than eventful for me. both of them aren't exactly facing the ideal V-Dae situation; one's bf is insensitive, one's gf isn't acting like his gf. had the MSN Convention for the past two days, and i'm not too sure if whatever was talked about got absorbed. it's hard for me to see them like this.

dollah, ingat diskusi kita. stand up for your rights! perjuangkan hak kau sebagai matair dia!
petom, kekal tabah, aite? seandainya dia masih macam gitu jugak next thursday, kasi tahu aku alamat dia. biar aku pergi sembur dia sebelum aku hantar dia crash course.

on my part, well. i can't say much, can i? i don't deny. there were more than one instances where i felt that i should just tell, i should just admit it. but i know there'll be awkwardness after that - i don't want what happened in the past to repeat itself. sometimes i think i'm kidding myself; that i can keep this feeling inside and just keep it within me, even if let's say, i'm like inches away to losing him from my life? i'd be lying if i say that i've never thought about how it'll be at year's end. how i'd say goodbye - if i get the chance to say goodbye at all. how i'll force myself to let him go and forget him if he's lawfully someone else's. whether i should admit to him in the end or just keep silent about it. it seems like months away, but i know it's not too far away. i know it's imminent.

i know that people will tell me not to think too far ahead, not to think about it. but i can't. everytime i see and hear all the hype about V-Dae, all i can think of is he'll be gone soon enough. on surface, technology sounds like the answer. but there'll always be a missing something.

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

1:16 am

Thursday, February 07, 2008

to all my chinese friends, happy chinese new year (:

okay, actually my mood is pretty lousy today (fine, i am the party-pooper.) i'm super sleepy the whole day, especially now when all i'm staying up for is Sg's World Cup Qualifiers against Saudi Arabia. and the fireworks across the Causeway is not helping to bring the mood up. in fact, it's getting past annoying.

turned out _ wrote a letter for the class. when i read it, i felt like crying, then smiling, then crying again. i swore i could almost hear _'s voice as i read the letter - like in the movies. after reading it the second time, i noticed that the ink looked so familiar. then..yeah. for a while i thought i was looking at my own handwriting, cos of the way some words were written. but generally it's quite different from mine cos my alphabet tend to be more oval and longer.

i thought of buying The Wedding Album. then just now i saw the ad for The Power Of Love - it was 2CDs for the price of 1! both albums have some of my favourite love songs. sighs. i think i'll opt for The Power Of Love cos there are 34 songs in there. and besides, The Wedding Album sounds more suited for weddings cos the songs are all so reminiscent of that. anyway, point is, that's my v-day gift for myself. yayy.

february will pass by quickly, anyway.

but i'll remember today, cos it felt a little more special.
happy cny (:

12:00 am

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

" Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...

And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December "
~ Once Upon A December by Deana Carter (Disney's Anastacia OST)
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" If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me.

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

**And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true

**

***I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
all they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
But still my heart is saying we were right

Oh if I never knew you
There's no moment I regret
If i never felt this love
Since the moment that we met
I would have no inkling of
If our time has gone too fast
How precious life can be...
I've lived at last...

***
We were right

And if I never knew you
If I never knew you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you "
~ If I Never Knew from Disney's Pocahontas OST
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i don't think i'll ever tell you, but maybe it's for the better.
some things are better left unsaid.
just let me see you through your happiness.
that's more than enough for me.

cause we're better off, separated...

11:20 pm

Friday, February 01, 2008

pictures time! haha. cos my mood is pretty good after watching Beauty and the Beast this afternoon. but but but, my fave remains to be Sleeping Beauty (:

my first pair of antonio club flats :) and it's superr comfy

my dad got this minature MRT for SMRT Engineering Nite '08. haha. cutee! no wonder i always feel an affinity for the MRT, cos without my dad, the MRTs won't be repaired!