Sunday, January 20, 2008
i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm not stressed out or anything (cos the question being, i'm stressed out about what? almost all the backlog stuffs are cleared, and the to be cleared are already cleared). and i'm no longer depressed (i can go out, have a good laugh, no longer crying). things are going on pretty normal for me. my social front is all fcuked up and i can't give a damn shit about it. but other than that, i'm fine cos i can manouevre around it. things are going on okay. so why do i feel that there's something terribly missing in my life?
everytime i come online, take a look at my msn contacts list, there are only 3-4 contacts that should be there cos they're the only ones i talk to - the rest are dismissible. so even if i delete them, no harm done. they still have my hp number.
i am so tired of the people around me that sometimes i just feel like blanking out everyone except the people that i still want in my life. initially, i'm troubled. now i just don't fcuking care. if people want me in their lives, go ahead. if they don't, then that's the least of my problem. cos thinking about this stuff makes me feel like going, "like uhhh.. whateveR. talk to the hand."
i have my family. i have the Glers.
i have _ somehow in my life. i have other friends and acquantainces. they're sufficient cos they're my backbone, cos they've been with me through the pain and the smiles, cos they've seen me at my best and my worst. as long as i have them, my life is fine.
random: umai, macehh sebab kasi aku that link to the gurindam jiwa vid. macam tahu aje yang aku akan terhibur lepas dengar (and tengok) lagu tu. tuai padi antara nampak, esok jangan layu-layuan. intai kami antara nampak, esok jangan rindu-rinduan. hehe. ILY beb (: SG on sunday tau!! whee!
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