Thursday, May 31, 2007

man.. i'm slightly tired from feeling high for the past 2 hours.. haha.. which was a bit stupid cos you get tired from running or a football match or chiong-ing homework, not by sitting down while listening to songs and smiling and/or laughing randomly.

ok ok.. shall flush out any traces of sheer happiness that's causing me to be high through some hiphop and rnb.. so jay sean, JT and ahli fiqir, get ready to hit my playlist..

or maybe i should listen to some trance by armin van buuren or tiesto. or maybe i can head down to zouk's website and listen to brendon p.. actually, that's a welcoming idea.. can channel my energy into these fast tracks.. haha..

wait.. that's just gonna make me high again.. but it will make me high and beat, so it's a winning combo.. haha..

AvB and brendon p .. i'm heading your way!!

11:13 pm

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

i was feeling very high today (:

after talking with nurun just now, i've decided that there's no point if i go on hurting myself about it. so i've learned to accept it, and the feeling is unbelievable (:

really. it suddenly felt as if a huge burden was lifted off my chest. brushing off the fact that it was wrong and accepting it instead.. i don't know.. it feels wonderful (:

though sometimes it hurts, 'tis really beautiful (: don't ever let it go...



aside from that, one more piece of news truly rocketed me up to the ceiling and to the sky. my all-time favourite indonesian band, peterpan, is back with their new album, Hari Yang Cerah (A Bright Day). When i came across omnichups's email in my inbox, i was elated. finally, my beloved band is back. and at that point in time, i realized how much i missed them (:

yup.. that's their new album cover. tbh, it's not really as nice as their old ones. and from 6 people to four.. peterpan sans andika and indra just doesn't feel the same (btw, the latter duo have formed a new band called The Titans, and judging by the lyrics of their single Rasa Ini [This Feeling], they are still hurt about being ousted out of the band and they still love peterpan..)

anyway, this is one of their new tracks that will be a guaranteed hit, Menghapus Jejakmu (Erasing Your Steps .. or something like that) :

love the song, love the band, and totally loving the fact that they are back! (peterpan, sahabat-sahabat pasti akan terus sokong kalian terusss.. =D)

[~terpesona ku pada pandangan pertama

dan tak kuasa menahan rinduku

senyumanmu slalu menghiasi mimpiku

inginku peluk dan ku kecup keningmu~]

10:26 pm

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

ok, cosmetics time!

in a bid to cheer myself up, i played around with an eyeshadow palette and a funky eyeliner.


eyeshadow: Flushed Maple
eyeliner: Funky Eyeliner in Frosty Silver
(all products of Silky Girl)

for starters, i started with the not-so-orthodox method of applying my Unstoppable mascara.

i used the lighter shade i.e. peachy pink on the entire of my upper lids, and darken it at the inner crease. sort of trailed the shade wayy to the corner of my eye as well so it sweeps out. then i swept on the darker shade i.e. mahagony (i think) onto the lashline. after i was happy with the way it stuck there, i brushed some randomly onto the outer crease and lightly everywhere else.

and now's the time for my favourite item in this experiment: Frosty Silver eyeliner!
so i simply applied it to my lower lashline all the way from the inner corner to the outer corner of the eye. then i drew it in halfway from the centre of my upper lashline and extend it out a bit.

and here are the results (i post 2 pics cos i dunno which one looks better)

9:19 pm

first of all, congratulations to Miss Japan Riyo Mori for being crowned the new Miss Universe 2007! you've made asia proud (:

8:51 pm

Monday, May 28, 2007

it hurts. it just hurts so much.

i've forgotten how much it hurts, and now i seem to remember it all again. heck, i think i may even finally know how to cry.

cos that's what i want to do now. and somehow doing now. crying.

yes, i really cried for the first time in a 2 years. so am i normal now or what?

anw, was listening to this:

BoA - Waiting (English Version)
I was in, the hardest of times,
Then you came along, oh my love,
But where are you now? What did I say?
I was in, the saddest of times,
Oh, what should I do, I miss you so,
Where are you, my love, I want you now,
Where are you now? I miss you like mad,
What can I do, you make me feel sad,
Honestly, love, you’re sent from above,
Kindly and loving, are you,
I am so bad; I miss what we had,
My heart will die, without you my love,
I love you so, Oh I love so, so bad,

When I love, I give it my heart,
But, you didn’t want to push it that fast,
But, with you, I gave you, my all,
Chatting with me, I love your sweet voice,
But now you are gone, with out a sound,
Honestly, love, you’re sent from above,
Kindly and loving, are you,
I am so bad; I miss what we had,
My heart will die, without you, my love,
I love you so, Oh I love so, so bad,

Now, how can I go-on,
Without you in my life,
My girl, my love, you will always be in my heart,
You will be in my heart,

Honestly, love, you’re sent from above,
My heart will die, without you, my love,
I love you so, Oh I love so, so bad,
I love you so, Oh I love so, so bad


i love BoA's voice. Beat of Angel. fittingly perfect.



[~I have to forget you even if I have to force myself
or I won't be able to face the rest of my own journey ~]

10:35 pm

spent $4.90 on Garnier Lightening Facial Mask.. it was on a buy 1 get 1 free offer, so i swooped down to watson's after madrasah to purchase it. i didn't go around recce-ing other stuffs, except that the Za White Emulsion caught my eye.

afterwards i indulged in fruity goodness by having a carrot fruit juice. initially i wanted to try the chilled coconut drink being sold at the bazaar, but after contemplating about how i'm gonna finish it (or force myself to finish it if it's not nice), i decided against it.

and it was the bazaar's last day. so after that, no Ramly burgers, otah-otah and cheap bags up for grabs. haizzz....

spent some time experimenting with my eye make-up set today. and man, it is sooo limited. i opted to go brown today, since it's the most extensive colour in my pathetic eye make-up set. i made do with one eyeshadow colour, one pencil eyeliner and my trusted mascara. i somehow slightly got the smoky effect, although i was just using one colour and it was very shimmery. at first i wanted to just leave the brown like that, but then decided that maybe light touches of maple will make it look better. then, vanity pot me scrutinised myself in the mirror and okayyy.. it turned out quite well. it was small-time glam with a touch of goth. i think my eyeliner compensated for the light pigmentation in my eyeshadow.

and shucks, i forgot to take a shot of it.

anyway, i didn't get round to doing a major self-pampering today cos guess what i was in the mood for?

revision.

nope, you ain't dreaming. i was in the mood for bio and chem revision of all things in the world. it was quite weird, cos after that quick make-up experiment (it was 5 minutes), i sat down and did bio. even my brother was shocked. it's just the start of the hols. i'm supposed to relax.

but with a microscopic shopping budget to live by, how the heck do i SHOP LIKE CRAZY??!

12:01 am

Saturday, May 26, 2007

i just realised something today: a one-month holiday with the workload that i'm getting is not sufficient. cos i have holiday homework to complete, and then the preparation for the ASEAN Humanities Challenge, which includes research, powerpoint slides and a report, as well as some revision for the new semester. add to that, scouring singapore for cultural spots as required by my malay project, my madrasah exams, meeting up with old friends, and of course, shopping during the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!

modern women nowadays are so busy with everything that's going on in their lives. so shouldn;t this be a hinthint to those spa outlets to reduce their prices and give student offers?

truth be told, i am in absolutely no mood whatsoever to even go window-shopping or playing around with my make-up. i played X-Box in the afternoon and practically got bored of almost every game, including those that i usually relish playing like Burnout Revenge cos being a speed demon and crashing your opponents' cars are cool, or Buffy cos being a vampire slayer is just so hot, especially when you get to pummel a few annoying vamps along the way, or playing on the same team as Kaka and Ronaldo in FIFA07 and FIFA Street 2. but i got sick and tired after 2 hours.

and an hour before, i was just sitting in my room listening to these tracks REPEATEDLY:
- Usah Lepaskan (Don't Let Go) by Taufik Batisah
- Kiss (Because I'm A Girl) by BoA
- Sampai Menutup Mata (Until I Close My Eyes i.e. die) by Acha Septriasa
- Hari Ini, Esok Dan Seterusnya (Today, tomorrow and thereafter) by Nirina Zubir
- My Heart by Irwansyah ft Acha Septriasa
- Our Love Will Always Last by Edward Chun
- The Long Goodbye by Ronan Keating
- Everlasting by BoA
- Waiting by BoA


common factor here? sad, sweet love songs that i just want to listen to for hours because that's exactly how i feel. those with my msn will probably see this as my nick and pm:

"I know they say if you love somebody You should set them free
But it sure is hard to do"

and that's taken from The Long Goodbye. what i intended to put was "If we love somebody could we be this strong" from My Heart or translate some parts of some BoA songs.

and the worse part is, i have to deal with this alone. i know i sound very bitter here, but better bitter than crying uncontrollably. both ways hurt.

10:42 pm

i've hit the centurian mark (:

anyway, since i've cheered up now past midnight (and before i slip into utter emo-ness and cry), i shall blog about happier things than the slight painful cough that i'm having.

i managed to time myself to 15 minutes on make-up! but it isn't 100% perfect cos it was light application and i was sort of aiming for it as well cos hey, i'll be indoors. and the Silky Girl funky silver eyeliner is so cool! it still sparkles on my eyes even after i've rubbed it clean with make-up removers. haha..

and the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE has STARTED!!!! i was breezing through Causeway Point this afternoon and whoo-hoo, am i gonna love the Sale! Metro have up to 50% sale! John Little have 15% storewide sale, and Bata have up to 50% as well. not to mention Charles and Keith and the whole throng of shops at Orchard that i want to raid someday! but i really love the fact that Watson's, Guardian and John Little are having huge sales (:

so far, i have planned to notch these stuffs while they last:
- Nivea Body Whitening Cream
- Garnier Light Facial Mask
- Nivea Q10 Eye Whitening Cream
- Neutrogena Deep Cleansing Cleanser/Mask
- dVb Intimately Beckham Body Lotion
- The Body Shop White Musk eau de toilette
- Maybelline ExpertWear Blush
- another bag
- another pair of shoes
- another watch
- The Body Shop nail buffer

haha.. i know.. so despo for stuffs just because there's The Sale (:
but you know what? the best part is that it's nationwide
so i can scurry around Singapore for bargains
all the way to 12am!!

my emo-ness is returning, so i shall go and energise myself for a small shopping spree at Causeway Point tomorrow!


and i still want that $1 sweet coconut drink before the bazaar ends.

12:23 am

Friday, May 25, 2007

i was planning to sit down and do add maths, but my thoughts keep wandering. i shouldn't be thinking about it, i know. but i can't help it.

it sucks feeling like this. it sucks knowing that this whole feeling is wrong. it sucks to realise that i'm to blame here for my own sucky feeling. it sucks that people all tell me the same thing, but it just can't seem to register in my brain. and it sucks that everytime i try to forget, it becomes harder for me to forget and it just hurts me more.

i was afraid i will be hurting myself in the end, and now it's coming true...

12:27 am

i really have to start saving and stop spending. seriously. i managed to save $15 over 2 weeks, and i blew $10 on eyeshadow and funky eyeliner. ok, it was partially not my fault. i mean, watson's having this mega mega sale, and they were selling Silky Girl eyeshadows and eyeliners at more than 30% discount. so of course, naturally, i picked some up (eyeshadow: flushed maple eyeliner: frosty silver) i thought of piling up on a few other colours as well, but then i was aiming for something that's versatile. and oh yeah, the ka-ching factor do come into place as well.

and i saw how tedious putting on fake eyelashes are. so unless i miracalously master the art of putting on fake eyelashes, i think i shall refrain from that. worse come worse, i stick those eyelashes onto my natural lashes. and of course, during removal, i'll be lashless. no thanks.

i was actually planning to save up money to get Fasio oil blotters and sunblock. and surprisingly, no, i didn't see them at watson's. i saw them at 7-11 redhill mrt. isn't that cool? you walk to the mrt on the way home from school and stop by to buy make-up. haha.. but i ain't gonna try the mascaras no matter how great the 3D airbrush is cos removing them is a killer. and i can't even afford a make-up remover. so how do i remove my make-up? thanks to my olay clarity daily facial cleanser, they get unstuck. anyway, i was eyeing the oil blotters cos there are 160 pieces for a few dollars. worth the money and of top quality as well.

darn.. spray insecticide also kena bitten by mosquitoes (anw, ppl, do watch out cos now is the dengue fever outbreak. so remember to overturn all unused pails, change the water in the vases and don't allow the mosquitoes to breed!!)

had spring cleaning in class just now. it was okay.. i was having a headache and wishing for a panadol, but i helped out as well. i wiped the tables, washed the fan (but it was rusting so heck care lah) and clear the rubbish. and i learned something new today: to make the windows sparkly, use newspaper to wipe. i seriously didn't know before just now, cos i always use a cloth to wipe the windows at home. anyway, apahal dengan dia seh? macam nak cari pasal dengan aku.. aku cakap dengan dia baik-baik tau.. kalau iya pun tak nak tahu, buat tak tahu ajelah.. tak payah nak tinggikan suara.. dia tu pelik semacam sebab dia boleh make me happy, make me cry and piss me off like no one else does. and itu pun aku tak boleh buat diri aku marah dia habis-habisan..

12:27 am

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

it's finally here! the mega showdown between AC Milan and Liverpool in Athens for the Champions League Finals 2007! Kaka, Maldini, Pirlo, Gattuso and Co. versus Gerrard, Alonso, Mascherano, Riise, Carra and Co. a relished final which is the exact repeat of the 2005 Champions League Finals (remember that great game where liverpool bounced back to beat Milan on penalties after equalising within 6 minutes after being 0-3 down in the first half? CLASS!!)

and this time, i'm betting on the rossoneri to win. Kaka to get that clincher and out of the blue, Gilardino decides it's his day and he wants to score, so he poked one in, cancelling out Riise's equalising piledriver minutes before. liverpool scrambles to get a second one, but gerrard's shot was just too wide. the referee looks at his watch, putting the whistle to his mouth as pepe reina quickly takes a long goal kick that lands at Mascherano's feet, who fumbled and lays a poor cross to sustitute Mark Gonzalez. speedy speeds down the wings, but the Milan defenders are just too impenetrable, putting their mastering of the catenaccio style of defending in place. suddenly crouch comes flying in, gonzalez crosses and crouch executes a scissors kick... only to fall flat on the ground and the ball was chested down by Nesta. Milan starts to stroke the ball around, with Kaka teasing the Liverpool midfield once every few seconds. then the final whistle was blown. liverpool slump down on the pitch, defeated. milan players kiss their badges and the trophy, lifting them as well.. and the travelling San Siro crowd swells into a huge Milan choir, singing AC Milan's anthem (whatever it is) meanwhile, somewhere in england, sir alex ferguson laughs as he opens the wine bottle presented to him as a gift by Milan coach Carlo Ancelotti..

that's my short prediction of what's gonna happen in the 90 minutes ++ for the game later (:
but i don't think it'll be that dramatic.

but please, play entertaining football. FA Cup Finals at the new Wembley bored me to sleep..

11:11 pm

to my CGS friends: sorry guys if me being emo today dampened your mood somehow. i just felt down. and thanks for all the attempts to cheer me up (:
Note: sorry in advance if this post sounds self-centred.

i couldn't get the song Sampai Menutup Mata out of my head the whole day. it kept replaying in my mind, and everytime it loops, that's everytime i felt tears at the corner of my eyes. i wasn't crying - i could feel the tears, that's all. but you know what? i seriously wanted to cry. i seriously wanted to go crouch in some hidden corner and really really allow myself to cry after so long. but i just couldn't. but i want to.

and the reason for all of this is so stupid. very very very stupid. sometimes i wish i could turn back time so i'll be leading my own life and didn't cross over to the other side. but then most of the time i'm glad i did. but i think it's my fault that i'm in this situation now. but i can't help it. the more i try to forget, the more difficult it becomes.

i know friends have been telling me to forget and ignore it and go concentrate on something else. but it's way easier said than done. way way easier said than done. i am the one who has to get through all of this. i am the one who's feeling the hurt that's self-inflicted more than anything else, and i think that's why it hurts so much. cos i know it was wrong in the first place, and i was aware of that. but did i heed my own advice? i didn't.

i'm not blaming anybody or the situation for that matter. it's just me. i gotta deal with this and get through all this. the only question is how long..

11:11 pm

Monday, May 21, 2007

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata

~ Sampai Ku Menutup Mata oleh Acha Septriasa

gue harus berusaha lupain semua ini, tak kisah betapa pedihnya ia..

11:39 pm

Sunday, May 20, 2007

i confess..

i suck at chem. i really really suck at it. i've been staring at the same page of the chem prac book for the past 2 hours, figuring how to do the calculations, and even with the hints in front of me, i still can't do it.

it's not that i hate chem. i don't. i find it rather interesting, although i'm more of a language and humanes person rather than science and maths. it's just that i plain suck at it, and it's so darn frustrating cos my bio is doing fine and my chem is half-dead or half-alive, whichever way you put it.

and i'm sick of staring at the same question for the past hours with no inkling how to go about doing it. and none of my friends seem to understand it as well. i shall change my stand; i don't suck at chem, chem just plain sucks. (although i know this isn't true, but hey, it's a form of looking on the brighter side)

and owen hargreaves is now a Red Devil. and i heard the price tag was ludicrous. i tell you, he's only been highly-raved and stuff cos he's 1) English, and England is despo for a great midfielder after scholesy and 2) cos he was the only english player who didn't play like sh*t* during the world cup campaign last year. to me, he is an average player. not until he proves his worth. and besides, we already have carrick. how are we gonna slot him, carrick, scholesy, ronaldo and giggsy in midfield? what we need, dear Mr Fergie and Mr Gill, is a right winger. i love giggs to bits, but we need a stand-in for him as well. and we need quality defenders cos our defence is rather thin, don't you think?

and chelsea is gonna sell off 3 players, and according to that one hell of a traitor, peter kenyon, no they're not gonna include egoistic stars shevchenko and ballack on the list. was hoping sheva will be on the list - the premiership isn't his place. in less than a season, he's managed to be lousiest star striker in the league within a matter of months. now, who's gonna beat that record?


and i just realised today that on a happy skin day i.e. no breakouts and your scars are fading, you don't need a lot of make-up. all i had on today was eyeliner, mascara, powder and a teeny weeny bit of gloss. and i got it all on under 5 minutes. and i achieve the same metallic look that i want. so on a day when i'm too lazy or not even in the mood to put on make-up, such simplicity in the form of a mascara will do. that's the essential make-up product for me.

and talking about mascara, i have decided to make more use of my blogspace and do a short review on the mascara that i am using.

MAYBELLINE UNSTOPPABLE MASCARA

this mascara was specially formulated for Asian lashes, with more focus being on the lengthening rather than volumising. but why do i love this mascara? firstly, it gives a natural effect and doesn't look so obvious. so if you prefer something that appears light and you don't really lke the idea of heavy, flurry eyelashes (believe me, i've seen people with this sort of eyelashes and it looks so uncomfortable), then maybe the Unstoppable is for you.

and really go Unstoppable with this mascara because it lengthens up to 50% of your lashes length. those with short lashes like me will appreciate it greatly. when i use it, my lashes get extended to almost my brow line, so that's how long it can go. furthermore, it makes eyeliner application easier since you actually have some lashes to hold down on.

its smudge-proof and to a certain extent waterproof formulae is commendable. even if your eyes get itchy halfway through the day, and you rub it vigorously, the mascara will stay (and so will your curls!) i even tried splashing some water on my face and to my surprise, it still stays. Unstoppable guarantees happy mascara wearing for up to 12 hours or more with a fuss-free formula like this!

phew.. so how's that for my first cosmetics review? i shall place more in my coming posts, so stay tuned!

11:12 pm

yup.. that's me, complete with eyeliner, mascara, lip gloss, foundation, powder and lousy lighting. and yes, the walls of my room are yellow, and that's a taufik batisah poster peeking out behind me.

i noticed that i loved the way my eyeliner gets slightly smudged after i wash my face with make-up on. no, seriously. my eyeliner looked darker and more obvious. so is that gonna be one of my weird tips or what?

what else? oh yeah, i read somewhere that the key to removing those dark eye circles and eyebags is to get sufficient sleep. and guess when is the optimum sleeping time? 11pm to 3am.

yup.. 5 hours only, and you wake up in the middle of the night. that's because your liver starts detoxifying stuffs in your body during this time, so when you're asleep, toxins are detoxed faster, leading to a more healthier and radiant you! so maybe they should have interesting football matches right smack in the morning, so then i can enjoy the full benefits (:

and i bought a new watch, despite buying a new white one a week ago. the interior is inspired by Guess summer collection, and the strap is light pink. and it looks nice on me, so why not? ahaha..

i need to get over all of it. it's just hurting me more than hearing their words.

12:54 am

Friday, May 18, 2007

call me weird, cos i got a sudden urge to start hitting the books again. no, seriously. i got this urge to do add maths and stuffs. now this is crazy cos mid-years are over, and i'm quite happy with my results (2 A1s, 2 B3s, 2 B4s and 2 C5s .. i'm a balanced girl..)

Nectarine and Plum Shower Gel + Body Lotion by The Body Shop

i tried smelling the stuffs at home and it really smells very sweet (: i can't wait to try it out!

yup.. that's the mask i'm talking about. ok so it looks a bit weird cos i used up one section of it that can last me for 3 sessions. yes, 15ml of the mask is a lot, and i only use up like what, 5ml? so 1 small section can last me for 3 weeks, and since there are 6, i guess i can enjoy the smell and richness of strawberry yoghurt for 4 months (:

i'm thinking of trying products from FANCL or maybe Neutrogena and Garnier. or maybe Za. a lot of people love Za's True White Essence and Mask. i don't know..maybe i should try it. but Garnier also sounds promising.. so hmmm...

also, i've learned a lesson: never trust a product just because of it's brand name. proof?

L'Oreal broke my heart with this product. yes, it makes my eyes feel very refreshed everytime i apply it, but the dark circles seem to not go away. or maybe it's just my eyes. either ways, i'm settling for the other one by L'Oreal.. the whitening one..

11:04 pm

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

blogger is back to normal. yay!!

anyway, i came across this interview transcript on redcafe.net : an interview with The King Eric Cantona!! yes, THE LEGEND, THE KING, and to some people LE DIEU (: so here are some excerpts..

King Eric: 10 years on

In a rare interview to mark a decade of retirement, the French superstar explains why he quit and gives his verdict on Cristiano Ronaldo, Sir Alex Ferguson and Zinedine Zidane

Jean-Philippe Leclaire and Jérôme Cazadieu

+ You finished your football career 10 years ago, at only 30. Do you feel any nostalgia for the time when you were playing?
- It happens, yes. Nostalgia can be a pleasant feeling. Childhood memories, music, a smell can make us nostalgic. In football it is more an overall ambience than a game or a special stadium. The game, the dressing room, the field . . . When I went back on the pitch at Old Trafford for [the French television station] Canal+, it reminded me of memorable moments that I cannot live any more. However, we must not talk about that forever. There are other things in life.

+ What memories do you have of your last official game, on May 11, 1997?
- It was against West Ham. I had swapped my jersey with a guy. I heard that he sold it at an auction, probably for a charity. (He smiles.)

+ What did you feel when you left the field?Nothing. Because I wanted to quit. I had had enough. - And I was telling myself that I could come back if I wanted. I thought, ‘You are young. You train two months and you are back’. I kept on thinking that for a long time. Then, six months ago, I realised that even if I trained for two months, it would not be enough.

+ Why had you had enough of the game?
- I did not have the flame any more. Football was my life, my childhood passion. When the flame disappears, why continue? To go to the Middle East for €300 billion? I was not interested in that.

+ Did the fact you were not selected any more for the French national team hasten your decision?
- With the World Cup coming up in 1998, I certainly would not have stopped in 1997. If we had won the European Cup with Manchester that year, I probably would not have quit either.

+ Did you ever think of staying in football, becoming a coach, an agent or a TV commentator?
- For a long time, thinking I could come back as a player helped me. So today I think I can come back as a coach. I know the doors are still open. Therefore I will never come back. If they were closed, it would probably make me want to break them down.

+ When the flame was blown out, was it because of the game or the environment?
- The environment contributed a lot. Manchester was a lot about merchandising. Sometimes they need you to do a tape, give interviews, write books, take pictures . . . To avoid my image and name being used all over the place, I signed precise contracts with the club. I gave them the exclusivity on my pictures. However, they did not respect it. I went to see [Sir Alex] Ferguson, then the chairman [Martin Edwards] to talk about it. I told them: beware, things are happening.

One morning before a game, on my way to eat breakfast, I saw myself on the front page of a paper. Some people do not care being on a tabloid’s front page. They are even proud of it. Well, it destroys me, even if I am on my way to play, it becomes more important than the game. I live it as treason. So on the day I said I was quitting, I told the club: “Okay, I quit, but you should know that I am still suing the merchandising.”

+Did you go to court?
- Of course. And I won.

+ You did not want to become a product?
- No. I asked them to take everything away. And it is gone now.

+ If you played today, it would be more difficult, wouldn’t it?
- The problem in Britain is that we cannot control anything. The country is great for many things, but is really ugly concerning everything linked to image, the press. It is not that it is hard to bear. I did it for five years, but it is sick.

+ When you quit, did you have a precise idea of what you would be doing 10 years later?
- I wanted to become an actor. However, I was not sure about anything. Ten years later, it makes me proud to be able to do films.

+ What room do you leave for football in your life today?
- None. The only room is in my head and memories.

+ What was the last game you went to see?
- It was last year at the Nou Camp for Barcelona v Valencia.

+ And on television?
- (He thinks for a while.) I remember seeing Roma against Lyon for the Champions League. But I do not like to watch games because it makes me want to play. And I do not want to depend on that feeling.

+ What do you think of Manchester United now?
- There is the football Manchester and the merchandising Manchester. These two worlds coexist, but for me Manchester United is the club, it is football. A culture of the “beau jeu”, a philosophy that has been existing for years. How to win with class. I am still madly in love with it.

+ What do you think about your successor in the legendary No 7 shirt, Cristiano Ronaldo. Is he worthy of it?
- Last season he did not score any goals. We had the impression he did not care. Something was missing. Now he scores and he is a new player. World class. One of the 10 best players on the planet. In modern football, playing as a team is very important, but we always need that kind of player who is going to strike out, to provoke.

+ Like Ronaldinho at Barcelona?
- Exactly. If the opposition can control your tactics, you need to be able to count on one individual who can make the difference.

+ Did it change you when you turned 40? Are you still the “French enfant terrible”?
- Is that how I was called? I do not think I changed a lot. I would still be able to jump on a guy in the stands.

+ You look calmer.
- I still occasionally blow a fuse. Even if I have learnt to know myself better with time. My ultimate goal is to be totally zen. I have always wanted that.

+ What would you want people to say about Eric Cantona the football player in 50 years?
- I lived football as it is supposed to be lived. Like a game you have to play honestly. The first thing is to work hard, without losing the notion of pleasure. I hope that is what people will retain from me. With my dark sides as well.

(This article first appeared in L’Equipe’s special tribute to Eric Cantona. Translation by Camille Février)

My comments: CLASS. ELEGANT. how many other players can you find like that??
ooh aah cantona (:
i wasn't a man united supporter yet when he was at the peak of his career, but i've seen vids of The King and i have never been so amazed. the sheer arrogance fuses with his classiness in the game, making it more intrinsic than ever (: i'll never forget the lifting of the collar everytime he wants to score.

CANTONA = LEGEND

10:49 pm

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

and blogger is still screwed after weeks... blogger people, can you guys please fix it asap? thanks. it would mean A LOT to me and millions of bloggers worldwide (:

anyway, marking day today = no school. went to have breakfast at Macs CWP with my mum, then we strolled around as usual. we were in metro and looking through all the nice clothes, and i saw at least 5 that i reallyy like. not to mention the pairings with the other outfits as well. and it was then that i really wished i had $500 to spend, especially in the victorian/bohemian section.

then we went to john little and there were a lot a lot a lot of Vincci shoes that were just crying out to me to try, and they look great and feel comfortable. aside from that, the cosmetics sale was still on, and i suddenly remembered that my eye cream is finishing. it was L'Oreal HydraFresh which i bought for $18 and it is having no effects whatsoever on my eyes. so i was planning to opt for something more radical, like L'Oreal Q10 whitening eye serum. if that doesn't work, i'm gonna have to go for Olay. and there was a perfect shade of Silky Girl eyeshadow that i saw, plus the rosewood set from L'Oreal. i think i'm gonna be more of a Silky Girl than a L'Oreal or a Maybelline girl, but i have to admit, L'Oreal's Touche Magique and True Match concealer were great when i tested them. the only non-common factor in this whole deal is the price.

i think i shall smell of vanilla tomorrow. i havent really been using my Body Shop vanilla scent, so before i buy the White Musk, i guess i'll have to enjoy vanilla first (:

12:14 am

Monday, May 14, 2007

i was watching this hilarious car show, Top Gear, on malaysian channel NTV7 this afternoon, where the hosts were racing to get to London from Italy, if i can remember correctly, to deliver a box of truffles. 2 of them will be piloting a plane, or a Cessna 186 to be exact. the other guy will be tearing the street with the best car ever made, the Volkswagen Bugatti Veyron 16.4 :


yup.. that's the car i'm currently in love with (: i shall tell you the stats and you will understand why i just love it:

Vehicle type: mid-engine, all-wheel-drive, 2-passenger, 2-door coupe
Base Price: € 1,127,210 (£757 359, $1,440,800)
Engine type: quad-turbocharged and intercooled DOHC 64-valve W-16, aluminium block and heads, direct fuel injection
Displacement: 7993 cm³ (488.8 in³)
Performance Ratings as Tested :
Zero to 60 mph (97 km/h): 2.5 s
Zero to 100 mph (161 km/h): 6.0 s
Zero to 150 mph (241 km/h): 11.0 s
Zero to 200 mph (322 km/h): 22.0 s
Standing Quarter-Mile / 402 Meter: 10.2 sec @ 143 mph s
Zero to 100 km/h: 2.5 s
Zero to 200 km/h: 7.3 s
Zero to 300 km/h: 16.7 s
Zero to 400 km/h: 55 s
Top speed (Electronically Limited): 253 mph (407.5 km/h)
Theoretical Top Speed: 257 mph (414 km/h)
Best Record: 257 mph (414 km/h)
Fuel economy:
EPA city driving: 7 mpg U.S. (30 L/100 km)
EPA highway driving: 10 mpg U.S. (16 L/100 km)


what really won me over was seeing how easy it was to manouevre the car on the streets, and how the hydraulic spoiler helps to push the car's weight down at corners and bends (in the mode called Defcom 3). if the car is on a straight highway, leave the spoiler and shift into Defcom 4 mode, sans spoiler. the car's much lighter and moves way faster.


and the speed. 407.5km/h. tell that to ferrari and porsche. tell that to McLaren-Mercedes. according to Top Gear, if this baby Bugatti's gonna race with an F1 McLaren to reach 200km/h, the Bugatti would win hands down.


comparing it to the Lambourghini Gallardo Spyder or Superleggera, i'd still take the Bugatti although the Gallardos look nice and are used as police cars in Italy. (yes, Italian traffic police use Gallardos as cars.. can you believe it? Italian cops using Gallardos.. not Subarus or what.. but GALLARDO..)

1:57 pm

Saturday, May 12, 2007

i was thinking of Labrador Park and the beautiful seaview when my class when there for our learning journey yesterday (:

it was really picturesque. the rocks, the vast expanse of the blue sea, and the white sea foam crashing gently against the rocks. i was standing at the "pier" , with the sea breeze blowing in and i could feel the soft touch of the wind on my face. i loved it.

anyway, this isn't something people expect, but i actually do read about politics in the papers. i don't know, i just feel that there's a need to know all these stuffs so next time people talk about the French president i wouldn't be thinking of Chirac but Sarkozy, or that Tony Blair will step down on 27th June. and according to Newsweek, Angela Merkel will be the new European superleader. Bush has this veto thingey with his Senate on the Iraq war funds. Indonesian president SBY has declared a major overhaul of his cabinet, with around 5 ministers getting replaced. former Malaysian PM Mahathir criticised PM Abdullah again (is he ever gonna be tired of it?)

i do give my views on certain countries' leaders and policies of course, but i shan't divulge too much on it cos no matter what, they deserve respect.

also, i watched Windtalkers on Ch 5 just now. the flick starring Nicholas Cage was good. it was kinda sad when he died in the end after saving his friend, but the overall story was fantastic.

you know, i admit that i do like watching these war movies. band of brothers, saving private ryan, thin red line, flags of our fathers, windtalkers, pearl harbour, letters from iwojima, the wind that shakes the barley, brotherhood, the pianist.. aside from the fact that it shows how wars change the lives of people drastically, it also portrayed something that i know i'll treasure forever: comradeship. i know that sounds weird coming from a girl and it just doesn't suit the context of a girls' school, but seriously, i will treasure that a lot. the feeling of confidence that your friends will always be there to back you, to support you no matter what happens. maybe i'm only feeling this way because this was what i had back in primary school, from my class, my level and my friends.

so since exams are over, and the football season will be over soon as well, i have planned to devote my time to movies. i don't know, maybe i'll rent flags of our fathers, letter from iwojima, night at the museum.. watch some p ramlee flicks.. buy karen kong's debut album, Mulakan.. go shopping.. go makan places-hunting.. go library and borrow a book..

sheesh. i sound so bored.

11:53 pm

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
And girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay
Cuz you are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine a life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
like long enough


Chorus


Cuz everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
I keep drowning in your love


Maybe I'm a drifter or maybe not
Cuz I am only safe here floating freely in your arms
I don't need another lifeline it's not for me
Cuz only you can save me oh can't you see


I can't imagine a life without your love
& even forever don't seem like long enough


Cuz everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
I keep drowning in your love


Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist cuz you're
the air that I breathe


Cuz everytime I breathe I take you in
(Everytime I breathe)
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
( Baby I can't help it)
Keep drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love


Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
Got me drowning
Got me drowning
(Got me drowning in your love)
Baby I can't help it
(Can't help it can't help it no no)


Cuz everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in ur love

~ Drowning by Backstreet Boys



i know i was weird to keep replaying this song on my handphone. but then, it felt that that was the only song that i wanted to listen to. that's the song in my handphone that i feel i can connect with. of course, another one would be Edward Chun's Our Love Will Always:

OUR LOVE WILL ALWAYS LAST - EDWARD CHUN / SOUL SYSTEM

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last
And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love can not be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we shareI have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that's right
Then baby, our love will always last
See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I'll never leave your side
But I know somedayI'll be gone, and you'll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we shareI have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that's right
Then baby, our love will always last
And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that's right
Then baby, our love will always last

11:53 pm

school was boring, except for the teachers vs sudents football match during the interclass game. the game was scrappy, but what do you expect? teachers to start ravaging down the wings like cristiano ronaldo? that will be the day.. hahaha...

baked brownies today (:

ok, so it was a betty crocker instant mix, but how you do it is still the cardinal. and it turned out great!! ~ wheeee!!!

and then i managed to master the gelato affogato (: it's simple, really. all you need is vanilla ice cream, and then you pour a very thick shot of espresso onto it, and tada! you'll have one of the finest gelato around. (and btw, i got this recipe from Food TV off David Rocco's Dolce Vita)

i managed to help my friend solve her problem, and analysed another problem that affects me indirectly but still passable with a heck care cos people are not suddenly going to be bothering to mix around more and stuffs. they just stick to the comfort.

and chelsea couldnt even beat a complete Man Utd reserves team; mwahahahaha!! ok, the game was a bore and a total waste of time, except when mourinho confronted that idiot Poll and got sent off the touchline. but Chelsea couldnt get past Kusczack or Smith or Kieran Lee, so HAHA! (keep ur chin up, mourinho.. now keep ur chin up..)

11:53 pm

i had my last mid-year paper today, and it was add maths. i couldn't answer 3 questions that can cost me up to 24 marks, so yay...

anyway, after that, i went shopping at John Little Causeway Point with my mum. there was a storewide sale, and an extra 20% for cardmembers, so of course i took that opportunity to shop.. haha.. anyway, here was what i had bought:

- Silky Girl automatic eyeliner in Black Brown
- Silky Girl gloss in Vintage Rose
- Silky Girl pressed powder in Natural

and the only reason why i bought Silky Girl cosmetics is because L'Oreal and Maybelline were too expensive for me. so i guess Silky Girl isn't too bad, as long as my skin has no adverse reactions to it

and mid years are O-V-E-R! YAY! haha.. there's class phototaking tomorrow, but then there's interhouse games in the morning, so i guess i need to bring my cleanser to get rid of all that oil, especially now the weather is suddenly scorching..

and i am addicted to Hikmah 3! haha.. the third season is so refreshing.. not many people like Eva in Hikmah 2 that just makes you wanna slap her.. haha.. and it also focuses a bit more on Surya and Sinta, the ever-altercating couple.. hahahahaha... they are SOOO funny!!!

and tadi ada orang ajak aku main bola.. aku dah bilang dia yang aku tak reti main.. tapi entahlah.. tengoklah macamana..

1:35 pm

Monday, May 07, 2007

two bands that i just seem to can't get enough of: Oasis and U2. A British band and an Irish band. Neighbours in terms of countries. Rock and Roll. Ain't no coincidence (:

i adore these songs from Oasis:
- Lyla (fell in love with the song while playing FIFA 06)
- Don't Look Back in Anger (hunted for it after listening to Jose and His Amazing Technicolour Overcoat)
- Wonderwall (one of my tracks where there was a Green Day ft Oasis ft Travis remix)
- Let There Be Love (i've always loved this track)

and U2 enticed me with:
- vertigo
- beautiful day
- pride (in the name of love)
- sunday bloody sunday
- sometimes you can't make it on your own
- windows in the skies
- the saints are coming (feat. Green Day)

yes, long live rock n roll (Beatles, U2 and Oasis) !!

10:59 pm

Saturday, May 05, 2007

ok, i'm gonna try to drill history into my brain cells now, so hitler, nazis, russian revolutions and post WWI stuffs, please diffuse into my brain and stay there. at least for the week or until after the paper on monday. then please make space for chemistry (:
(and no, debbie, i ain't being scandalous here)

i can't wait for the John Little 20% cardmembers-only sale this tuesday to thursday! i wanna stock up on a lot of stuffs, but then with an ultra-limited budget, well, i'll have to plan and decide. these are what i may consider picking up:

1) L'Oreal True Match Pressed Powder
2) Maybelline Watershine 3D Essence
3) L'Oreal Touche Magique
4) Intimately Beckham for Women Body Silk Lotion
5) Silky Girl Automatic Eyeliner in Black Brown
6) Maybelline Expert Wear Trio Eyeshadow
7) Maybelline Dream Mousse Blush

a lot of things that i want to buy but then how with the money that i have left.. man.. all these could very well remain dreams...

i think if somebody gave me a $500, i would have been able to renovate my wardrobe and stock up on cosmetics to my heart's content. plus i can get my stilettos from Charles and Keith!! add a few nice handbags to match as well. i can buy THAT ultra-nice blouse i saw at Metro that cost a bomb ($80) and then i can chip in to shops like Mango or G2000 and get all that i want!
~wheee!!

so who's gonna be kind enough and give me that $500 with no strings attached?

i LOVE the White Musk series from the Body Shop. i think i'm gonna save up cash to get the body spray and the new shimmer fragrance (: LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT


haha.. i'm so surprised at how typically feminine i've become as the years pass (:
guess going to a girls' school has its pros after all (:
to sum up what i'm feeling, let's quote McDonald's : "I'm lovin' it!"

11:57 pm

Friday, May 04, 2007

takde orang perli aku hari ini, dan dia takde sebab pun nak perli.. haha..

anyway, seems like someone had changed perfume.. walk past me can catch a whiff already.. haha.. but it smells nice, so credit to the person for that (:

had elementary maths and biology exams today. e maths was ok.. rather doable, except for a few part questions that i just gave up on finishing cos my mind went blank for a while. bio was a completely different story. i think i screwed it up big time. sheesh.

had lunch with ferind today. it was really post-exams-for-the-week indulgence, with tom yum, fishball noodles and popiah basah (which we bought and wolfed the whole thing down in less than 3 minutes, and it was after the tom yum and fishball noodles) and oh yes, a whole rubbish of a conversation on food.

yes. FOOD. the four-letter-word that's synonym with anyone and just everybody. the monosyllable that is one of the special things about Singapore. so we were just rattling off our favourite food. and this includes mata kucing, longan, lemak cili padi, rendang, sambal goreng, nangka, goreng pisang, epok-epok, chendol, ice kacang, cheng teng... basically all these kampung food that we just love. fancy talking about food as means to destress after the exams..

and i just noticed today that bored people can do the (somewhat stupidest but still) cutest things, even if it's just to entertain themselves on their own (and make me hold back my laughter during the maths paper when i glanced up)

11:49 pm

Thursday, May 03, 2007

WARNING: Do not try to agitate a football-depressed individual who has seen her team crash out 0-3 to the hosts at San Siro. let her drown her sorrows in (oh yes) football videos.

remember this ad?



or how about this one?



suddenly our football stars are capable of beating ninjitsu-performing robots with Nike merchandise. so can Nike develop a pen so i can beat the exams demons?

but i simply love this one (:
i remembered that back in 2004, my friends were all running around, uttering the magic word: OLE

4:44 pm

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

i was channel-surfing this afternoon and i came across this Korean flick, 100 Days With Mr Arrogant. that movie was soo cute!! hahaha..

i didn't watch from the start; i watched when Ha-Young, the heroine, was being tutored by Hyung-Joon, the jerk in the movie who wanted her to repay him $3000 for kicking a can and scratching his Lexus. hahaha.. they seemed to be this odd couple, with Hyung-Joon forever treating her like trash. but it turns out that they started to fall in love with one another, except that Hyung-Joon is this egoistic prick. hahaha..

some parts of the movie was sad, but most of it was funny. i particularly liked the ending (:

the last few scenes of the movie:






haha... wait, now im crazy over Korean movies. hahaha..

i tried to study Social Studies, but i got so bored of the 2nd chapter, i had to stop. chapter 4 was much better cos it was general politics. chapter 2 is just b to the or to the ing.

but i managed to do a bit of chem today as well, so at least that compenasates my lack of focus on social studies. i don't mind the subject when i learn it on the spot, but when i have to flip through the textbook... mann... where's the fun in there?





[^everytime i breathe i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby i can't help it
keep drowning in your love^]

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