i feel like screaming and jumping and just SCREAMING MY HEART OUT!!!!
Everton 2 Manchester United 4 !!!
and we were 2-0 down!! and somehow O'Shea equalised, Phil Nevill gifted us a goal, Roo the man pummeled a third and Chris Eagles finished off with the fourth!! after Eagles scored, i just wanted to jump out and scream!!! actually, no. i've been wanting to scream ever since O'Shea scored the equaliser!!!!! i was so scared when Fernandes scored the second for Everton, and Chelsea was leading Bolton 2-1 [but final score was 2-2 (: ]. and i was calculating that chelsea will be level on points with us and things will really go down to the wire. and then, at that moment when i was worried, O'Shea popped one in for us!!! i was so relieved, i was just screaming "YES! YES! YES!" all the way to the dinner table. then the Devils fought back and doubled the damage Everton did to them.
after the final whistle, all i wanted to do was just SCREAM!! after i managed to scream silently, i just had to sing the Red Flag; i was too overjoyed! here's the lyrics:
The Red Flag
United's flag is deepest red It shrouded all our Munich dead Before their limbs grew stiff and cold Their hearts' blood dyed its every fold
So raise United's banner high Beneath it's shade we'll live and die So keep the faith and never fear We'll keep the Red Flag flying here
We'll never die, we'll never die We'll never die, we'll never die We'll keep the Red Flag flying high Cos Man United will never die
after that, i was tempted to ditch bio and immerse myself in MU (: a fantastic YT movie that i came across:
i'm so high on Manchester United again and again!
10:13 pm
Friday, April 27, 2007
this is surely gonna be one of those long entries.. haha..
self-reflected after that talk, watched the MU-Milan semi finals, got high on MU's 3-2 win (until i almost couldn't think straight during the chem test which, now that i think about it, was really a giveaway test) and chose Kaka over Roo-naldo as future best player on Ernest Luis's blog (thepostman.blogspot.com)
headed to manutd.com just now, and Giggs had contributed a small column! and i'm simply highlighting what he said about MU's chances of repeating our dominance:
"It's not always possible to play great football every week, so not playing well and winning can make all the difference, especially at this stage of the season. We've done it a few times this season and it's what we used to do when we were winning titles.
It's really a case of staying focused - not on what other teams can do to lose the title, but what we can do to win it." - Ryan Giggs
i totally agree with him. i know some MU fans, me included, are rather worried because our defence is almost fully-decimated and we need to rope in makeshift defenders from the midfield and reserves. and the fact that only 3 points separate us from Chelsea. but let's trust Giggs and go "heck care" with all these bullshit that the media is always harping on. MU should carry on trying to win, even if it's just a grinding 1-0. we CANNOT and SHOULD NOT hope for cheatski to slip up (but that'll be nice)
quoting current Newcastle player and ex-MU player who still remains our fave till this day, Nicky Butt, "If everyone hates you and no one wants you to win then you are obviously doing something right. "
Go Nicky! haha..
anyway, on the general conversation of football, i managed to catch this on youtube:
i had to rewatch the vid 3 times to confirm that i was believing what i was seeing. it's simply mind-blowing, the trickery displayed and composure possessed. and the way the ball seemed GLUED to his feet . . . .
English Mid-years tomorrow!!! the exams are really starting, and my exam preparations are at 50% only!! arghhh!!!!
[~biarlah apa yang dibicarakan dirahsiakan oleh kami, kerana padaku ia agak istimewa dan aku sendiri terperanjat macam mana aku betul dalam mengikut kata hatiku dan boleh menceritakan segalanya kepadanya~]
2:11 pm
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
i guess i made the right decision by listening to my heart. i had been contemplating it for weeks, but after i finally made myself sit down and asked my heart what i really should do, it provided me with the answer. i wasn't sure if i was being crazy or naive to follow my heart's calling, but at least it gives me some sense of security. and now, i don't regret it cos i already feel a bit better (:
you know, when i sat down and tried to listen to what my heart is telling me to do, i realised that sometimes, my mind rules me too much that i neglect my heart. but now, i seem to have this belief that no matter how much your brain can analyze a situation and possible outcomes, in the end it's your heart that will ultimately provide you with the answers.
anyway, felt uber hyper and really happy today when everyone else in class were feeling depressed and down. MANCHESTER UNITED BEAT AC MILAN 3-2 IN THE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE SEMI-FINALS AT OLD TRAFFORD. and while Kaka was made MOTM and Cristiano Ronaldo crowned PFA Player and Young Player Of The Year (EPL), ROONEY was silently polishing his shots. silently practising, silently exerting his influence on a mtach, silently unleashing the genuis in him. not too long ago, people were complaining, saying how Shrek's cousin seem to be a former shadow of himself in 2004. but then, the thing about our ROO is that you all have to be patient. Rome wasn't built in a day (but Roma was demolished in 90+ minutes... haha..), and a genius still needs time to develop. a long goal drought, and now a seemingly endless supply of goals, passes, shots and of course, passion, heart and determination that's synonym with Manchester United.
no matter what the result will be in San Siro in 2 weeks' time, Manchester United, just know this: The blood that flows in my body will forever be Red, and it is pumped out by a Manchester United emblazoned heart that's burning with the fiery passion, determination and never-say-die attitude that is characteristic of us. In other words, Manchester United, I'll support you all the way through, and till the day i die, if possible.
11:11 pm
Sunday, April 22, 2007
i don't think i'll ever find myself saying this, but for the past five hours, i enjoyed studying. no, seriously. i enjoyed it, although i was doing subjects like elementary maths which is quite boring. maybe it's just a relief cos i manage to pry my thoughts away from wondering about my life. i wasn't 100% focused on what i was studying, but i'm sure there was around 80% somewhat. and doing calculations is quite fun somehow. you just apply the formulae and manipulate it around. and oh yeah, the provided answers helped a lot as well.
come to think of it, i feel like staying up the night to study. man, this is sooo weird. which girl in the right sense will even think about relaxing her saturday night away studying??
anyway, sidetracking a bit. i was window-shopping at causeway point after lunch just now, and stumbled upon this mega The Body Shop sale. there was a lot of stuffs that i was just dying to get!! here are some of it:
- Vanilla Eau de Toilette (i'm in LOVE with this scent, i think! the S.A. sprayed some on me just now and the scent lingered for hours!! and it smelled so voluptous, so yummy.. like vanilla ice cream!!) - Cassia Rose bath & shower cream/bar soap (according to my friends, the scent can stick to your body the whole day, so that's great! and besides, it's rose so it won't clash so much with my Intimately Beckham for Women body spray) - cocoa body butter (something like a cellulite-buster, according to a reader on tyrabanks.com)
i listened to Il Divo, Michael Buble and Patrizio Buanne a while ago after not listening to them for sooooo long! they certainly have some of the nicest voices on my cd rack, especially the Il Divo quartet. they sound so harmonious, it's heart-melting and captivating! to be honest, i bought their second album, Ancora, last year without being a fan of theirs and just buying it cos they looked good, and i heard they sound good, so i decided to give it a shot. but after listening to the first 2 songs (Heroe and Isabel), i was hooked. their voices and harmony are beautiful. only then did i become one of their fans. my favourite voices are Sebastian Izambard and Urs Buhler, especially the former. Sebastian has this voice that's just nice - not too deep, not too high. in other words, a unique but commercial voice that's easy on the ears.
ok, going back to the Man Utd game. the lads are battling it out with Gareth Southgate's men. 1-1 now, thanks to Richardson in the 3rd minute. but the final result? well, let's hope we get the 3 points, and maybe a goal from Smithy will be nice (:
1:15 am
Saturday, April 21, 2007
you know how is it when sometimes you just feel soo down, all you want to do is call up or meet up with someone whom you believe you can trust just so you can pour out all that's in your heart? (well, ok, not all, since pouring out blood is rather gory, and some stuffs are best kept to yourself.)
i really wanna just sit down and talk to a trusted person. just me and the person, and i can just tell whatever that's been hidden away in my heart, let my vulnerability surface, show my weaknesses... just let my weaker self be exposed and the person can know who i really am deep down.
now, this would have been a good idea to contemplate if i have ideas of who i can look for, aside from my family and friends. but then, each time i look around, there seemed to be no one.
2:42 pm
Friday, April 20, 2007
i was half-asleep the whole day at school. had fun hanging out with Ferind. went home, stoned.
and now, i'm just feeling blue..
2:37 pm
Thursday, April 19, 2007
To Crescent ELDDS girls: girls, we did it!! after all the months of prepation, practising, getting yelled at by Matt and Mr M, getting comfortable in our costumes, memorizing the script, working on voice projection, working on the development of our on-stage persona (okay, i shall cut the long story short and go straight to the point), WE DID IT!! ~woohoo!! we went out there, gave it our all for that 20:19 minutes (: and the judges loved our story, and there were no major errors! we can do it, people! hopefully we get that GOLD that's been eluding us all these while...
yup, had SYF Drama performance today, so that means i missed subjects, including chem (i still can't understand basicity!), history (cos there was a test.. and now i have to take it another day.. haizz..) and higher malay (Cikgu Rina and all the Rinarians i.e. Sharah, Mira, Nita, Shiau Haln, Nasuha, Rayhana)
and i also missed the Family!!!!! so here's my dedication to all of them:
- I miss you Ferind! but then we went out for lunch so rindu terubat.. haha! wait for my card! <3 - I mis you Debbie! Sexy mama! hahaha.. you can throw away that card cos i'm gonna give you a nicer one.. haha.. <3 - I miss you Sathiya! same like Ferind, i sat down and chatted with you so you sort of cured that feeling! a card is coming your way! <3 - I miss you Gen! I wanted to catch that MU game, but i slept late so cannot ): but anyway, MU won 2-0! and Rooney scored! ~woohoo! and yes, you'll also be getting a card soon! <3
and then to all my friends who i missed (cos there's a lot.. haha..) : I <3 you guys!! (and this include ALL MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS [6d/e/f/g/j'04].. you all know who you are, and i'm not gonna type out all your names cos if later i miss out on anyone, then you all scold me.. don't want lah! haha.. )
1:01 pm
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
i have a whole darn lot of homework to complete, and subjects to revise!! arghh!
okay, okay, after SYF, i'm definitely gonna have more free time, right? then i can focus all my energy on my studies (:
so SYF Drama tomorrow!! we'll be performing at Hwa Chong Institution, and according to the main cast, the theatre is like damn pro! spacious, with all those spotlights, side lights and whatnots. it's like a full drama set! haha..
anyway, to all the LD girls: let's just go out there and do it, guys! let's show the bloody judges what we are capable of! and aim for gold (we just need 80 points), but silver is also fine (: haha..
yay! finally finished my geography. haha.. it was simple, but rather tiring and tedious. haiz..
and talking about tedious, i admit i like A Maths, but man, i ain't gonna love coordinate geometry no matter what happens. so yup, me + graphs = mutual dislike. so that's why i decided against taking physics..
and i am so in love.. with three songs: 1) Makin Aku Cinta (The more I love you) by Kris Dayanti and her husband Anang
2) Terpesona (Enchanted) by Glenn Fredly and Audy
3) Ceritera Cinta (A love story) by Jaclyn Victor and Rio Febrian
i love love love love love these songs!! i love the lyrics, i love the tune, i love the voices (: my all-time favourite is Terpesona cos the song is just so sweet! but currently i don't mind listening to Makin Aku Cinta again and again!
" Makin aku cinta Cermin sikapmu yang mampu meredam rasa Keakuanku mengerti memahami cinta "
~ Kris Dayanti feat. Anang, Makin Aku Cinta
11:01 pm
came across this on tyrabanks.com :
Bradley Bayou's 10 Dress-Sexy Commandments
1. Thou shalt choose the right undergarments. The most common problem? Creating new bulges next to the ones you’re covering up.
2. Thou shalt choose the highest quality fabrics thou can afford. Buying cheap is like buying disposable clothing.
3. Thou shalt not force your figure into every style. Certain styles will never look good on you. Period.
4. Thou shalt use your skin to your advantage. A peek of flesh can instantly draw the eye straight to the spot you’re showing off-and away from a flaw you’re trying to conceal.
5. Thou shalt not buy big-tricket trendy items. If you look at somrthing and have to ask yourself, “Do I really think this will look good in two years?” it probably won’t.
6. Thou shalt select skinny fabrics and cuts. Fabrics that gently flow and drape over your body create more of a vertical line, making you seem slimmer.
7. Thou shalt ignore clothing tags-the fit is the thing. Generally speaking, if there are wrinkles in the fabric when you try it on, the garment is either too small or too big.
8. Thou shalt hall accessories. They divert from your flaws and are more affordable than clothes.
9. Prints and accessories must be in scale with the body. Little things on big people look ridiculous, and big things on little people look ridiculous.
10. Thou shalt wear the V-neck shape-it looks good on every woman. No matter what shape or size you are, the V-neck will create the illusion of a slimmer waist.
11:01 pm
Monday, April 16, 2007
this is random, i know. but i just pieced it together just now when i was studying:
Untitled(combination of Shape Of My Heart, My Heart, Drowning and Till)
I don't know where to start But to show you the shape of my heart
If we love somebody Could we be this strong I will fight to win Our love will conquer all Wouldn't risk my love Even just one night Our love will stay in my heart
Everytime I breathe I take you in And my heart beats again Baby I can't help Keep drowning in your love And everytime I try to rise above I'm swept away by love Baby I can't help it Cos I keep drowning in your love
I'll never feel complete Till my word is your trust Till you find me again With your love
3:34 pm
Saturday, April 14, 2007
one of my favourite songs (:
Ku Tlah Jatuh Cinta by Agnes Monica
Kini ku mulai bertanya Salahkah keinginan ini Tak tahu entah bagaimana Diriku cinta padamu
(Bridge) Hanya bila kau membalas Cinta kan jadi milikmu
(Korus) Ku pastikan hatiku untukmu Sejak pertama kau tatap mataku Hanya senyummu mengisi relung hatiku Ku t’lah jatuh cinta
Pernah ku sempat kecewa Tak bisa lagi ku terluka Tunjukkan satu jalan lain untuk ku Hapuskan dilema dari rasa ragu
(Ulang bridge & korus)
TRANSLATION (i give it, cos i'm nice and feeling bored)
I've Fallen In Love by Agnes Monica
now i ask myself is it wrong of me to feel this way i don't know how is it that i fell in love with you
(Bridge) Only when you reciprocate That's when love will be yours
(Chorus) I've ensured that my heart is yours Since the very first time you looked at me Only your smile can fill up this emptiness in my heart I've fallen in love
I've been hurt once Can't bear to be hurt again Show me another different path Erase this dilemma from my uncertainty
(Repeat Bridge and Chorus)
4:02 pm
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
it seems like i've really sunk it this time. i've really hit the floor. i feel pissed, i feel tired. i just feel like i've hit the feeling low bar, until i don't know how low the bar will be. the point is, i'm just feeling darn low. i get pissed by little stuffs, my patience wears thin, and i just feel so tired of everything.
kadang-kadang aku rasa macam aku nak jumpa, duduk dan berbual dengan dia. i don't know.. i just feel like i need to, and it'll make me feel so much better.. maybe i should?
11:32 pm
MANCHESTER UNITED 7 (Carrick x2, Ronaldo x2, Rooney, Smith, Evra)
AS ROMA 1 (Daniele de Rossi)
MU made it through to the semi-finals and malu-ed AS Roma at Old Trafford. enough said.
11:32 pm
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
ferind and i crapped a lot today. serious. we were recounting and regurgitating classic punchlines from the various P Ramlee movies from the bus stop, in the bus, in 7-11, while eating our donut and TimeOut, in the train. some of my faves:
"Hai mambang merah, mambang etc. etc. Mambang mabuk minum brandy."
haha..man, i love these movies, especially the Bujang Lapok series. haha.. they are so hilarious! and to think they're filmed wayyy back in the 50s and 60s, and even P Ramlee has passed away, yet these flicks are just so lovable!
^nothing in the world can make it right cos baby loving you would be tonight^
~ How Does It Feel by Westlife
11:01 pm
Sunday, April 08, 2007
sometimes i'm tired of the way life works its magic. one moment you're having one of the best times in your life, the next you feel like beating everything up. one moment you sense passion for your favourite club and feel proud that you stuck by them through a lot of lousy games, own goals and mega losses. the next you just don't care. one minute you're struck in awe by the sheer class and elegance the Italian teams display on the field. the next you just don't give a damn. one minute you get excited by F1, the sound of the engines drumming within the cars that are tearing the circuits apart. after that, you don't even care that Alomso won and not the Ferrari team.
i don't know if this is because i'm stressed, depressed or simply tired of almost everything. yes, i was excited and pleased with the results of my Unstoppable mascara. it lengthens my lashes, and then they curl naturally. but other than that, when i view life as a whole.. i don't know..
what i feel, what i worry about.. i don't know..
[^tunjukkan aku jalan lurusMu untuk menggapai surgaMu terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku^]
11:30 pm
Saturday, April 07, 2007
watching hana kimi last episode on youtube, and at the same time doing chem tys. haha.. hana kimi has a cute storyline, and wu zun is rather shuai also..haha..wait, wu zun belongs to mira, but then she doesn't have to worry lah; wu zun looks too boyish for my taste. haha..
had flag day today. paired up with sathiya and then we tried asking people for donations. we partially succeeded but then gave up after 2 hours because we were so darn tired and hungry. so we bought OCK and drinks and sat down at fareast plaza for the next 2 hours. haha..
after that, we returned the tins. we were supposed to meet up with our respective groups of sec 2 classmates to have lunch; sath's going to yoshinoya, i was planning to go out with one of my friends. but then they dissed us and we got so pissed, sath and i ended up going for luch together.haha..we lunched at this cute place in Lucky Plaza called Resto Surabaya. we had something like ayam penyet there, but it was a bit different. sathiya tried the iced coke with milk. i know it sounds weird but it actually taste nice. a bit like coke float. haha.. i had es chendol, which was what i had been dying for. and the chendol was exactly what i wanted. and my food plus drink added up to less than $10. so with such a nice ambience, excellent food, great price, good service.. GUE CINTA SAMA RESTO SURABAYA!!
11:01 pm
kadangkala aku melangkah melalui hidup ini hanya meniti detik-detik hari tanpa mengira apa tujuannya dan aku makin lelah menyusurinya
jika lautan hidup ini seluas lautan dunia alangkah sempitnya kesempatan yang wujud dan gelora terus melanda menyukarkan peluang untuk terapung memeluk cebis-cebis harapan yang masih wujud
ketakutan membelengguku jangan biarkan aku hanyut lemas ditindih badai yang menerpa
(COPYRIGHTED 2007 Nur Syafiqah Ahmad Jaaffar)
11:01 pm
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
somehow today i feel like being guai and chiong-ing as much homework and revision as possible.
see? i'm weird today, im using all these slangs that i know. why? cos i'm bored. haha. no, really. i'm gonna chiong on my homework all the way. i don't know if this is even called relieving stress and forgetting about your life problems for a while. it is, right?
and anyway, Roma beat MU 2-1. scholes got red-carded. bro, when will you ever understand that you are a brilliant midfielder but a lousy tackler? and the rest of you Devils, what is it with us everytime we meet an Italian team? we get run all over and dispossessed. Roma was playing an enjoyable brand of football - pure, traditional Italian style of play: wing play, those firey direct straight shots, those goals that just scream Serie A and the ultimate catenaccio defence. in short, it was classy, it was aggressive and it was elegant. now i know why i sometimes watch Serie A. haha..
10:57 pm
ok, gonna make this a quick one. but then i don't think it'll last just a few lines.. haha..
anyway, yay! my parents let me go for CrezAwards next friday! haha.. fyi, CrezAwards is a la Talentime, except that it's done the Crescentian way. haha.. i don't know why i'm so spirited about school events and spirit now that i'm in Sec 3.. but whatever. bottomline, i enjoy it! haha.. according to the Kim and Ms Vicky, 2 of my teachers will be singing (i know one can sing.. the other one..well..i'm sceptical, so prove me wrong!) and they'll be calling 3 Singapore Idols down as guests. and then i heard from nazeera that Syarif Sleeq is also coming, so yeah, if the sound system works fine, i hope it'll be a blast!
on my way home, i ran into siti at admiralty mrt and then we stopped to chat for a bit. then we told each other that we sometimes run into our old friends there; she usually runs into Azizan, i sometimes run into Andika. and then siti was like, "eh, i remembered last time in primary school, during lunch, you and andika will always fight to get the potato dish. then you'll be like, dika, leave me a bit of it lah. and then dika will be like, ah, don't care, don't care. but then in the end he always give in."
haha.. i was laughing at that point of time. cos i remembered that during lunch, we all usually rush down to the last stall and "scuffle" to get into the queue. and according to siti, everytime we queue up, i'll always fight with andika over the potato. haha.. man..wish i could relive those days..
and to be honest, i miss them a lot. REALLY A LOT. i've known azizan since pri 1, and we've been in the same class for the whole 6 years there. and i've known andika since nursery, then we ended up being in the same primary school and same MT classes. and our families know each other, so i guess that just makes the bond stronger. and 6-11 years spent with your friends is not a short period. imagine, for 6 years you watch each other grow, you joke with each other, you crap with them, you get into trouble with them, you just go crazy and have fun with them...
maybe to others this is simply nostalgia, but then to me, these memories shape me into who i am today, and these people are the first few true friends in my life, so as the mastercard saying goes, the value of these friendships: priceless
10:57 pm
the one
Nur Syafiqah Ahmad Jaaffar
ex-WGPS 6E'04
Crescent Girl's School
syaf_316@hotmail.com
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